Tomorrow

December 1st is approaching quickly and I do be lieve this will be a very hard day for all my family and for myself, this would have been Bradleys 41st birthday and it is still hard to believe that he is not here with us.
It has been just over 6 months now and it is not any easier.
There is not a day that goes by that I do not think of him and miss him. It never seems to get easier but does seem to get different when you loose someone that you care about. I still think it was so unfair for him to be taken from his family and all of us who loved and knew him.
I know I will never be as good as Brad was and no one will ever replace him in any way. I now realize he was the glue that held this family together and now that he is gone, that glue has disappeared with him. You never realize how important anyone is when they are with you so all I can say to that is remind them every chance you get how important they are.
I miss you Bradley and I wish you were here so I could tell you how much I love you and wish you a Happy Birthday.

I was going through boxes the other day and found old family pictures and it made me happy and sad at the same time, there were picture of the whole family from years ago, some of Grandma and Grandpa Potter, and one of Grandma and Grandpa Metzger. Just a mix of everything when we were all happy and got along and were all in Alberta and here and together. Pictures are always a great memory and reminder of better times in ones life.

I sent my mother a letter and birthday card the other day, Her birthday was yesterday. Happy Birthday Mom. I am not sure I will ever speak to most of my family again , but do know and hope to reconnect with Mom again. I miss her more than anyone and just want to pick up the phone somedays and tell her that. I wish I could but know I am not ready to yet. Hard to be without her. We use to talk on the phone at least 2 to 3 times a week.

As for the rest of my family I do not have much to say though I do say this my thoughts go out to Patti and the kids tomorrow because I know it will be hard for all of you, wishing you the best.

I wish all my family well over the holidays and hold no grudges against any of you, I just have nothing to say to any of you or want to speak with any of you at this point and time and for some of you probably never again, I am sure the feeling is mutual.

Matt and I have built a live of our own, and have a great family with his parents and friends who surround us on a daily basis, either here in Toronto or throughout the world.Thank you to all those people who are in our lives and with us daily. We love you very much and appreciate your friendships.

The holidays are soon approaching and I just want to take a moment to say Happy Holidays to everyone, whether we speak or not, I hope you all have a great Holiday season.