A little stressed

Well anyone who knows me knows this is truly an understatement and I am always more than a little stressed and always worry about someone, something and put all others before myself always. I thrive on stress most days and this is how I have been successful in the hospitality industry. Though some stresses I can seriously do with out as we all can, these stresses are the lost of a loved one, health issues for you or someone close to you. These two seem to be my largest stresses of the last couple years and I just hate it.
I am now stressed over a great loved one and am so afraid of losing them, and am not sure I will ever be ready to do so. I am talking of course of my parents as they are a part of whatever small and fabulous little bit of family I have left in my life. The family I choose to have in my life, Matt, my parents, and his parents, and a few cousins and some very dear friends. I like this new family concept and have adapted very well to it.
As your parents get older it gets harder and we are at the age now where we are losing parents and friends parents so often, it is a never ending circle and I hate it. I am not happy that over the last year I did not realize how important your parents are to you and this shall be the one regret I have for the rest of my life, though we all have regret and we live with it.
I love my parents unconditionally and always will, even if I go for a period of time when I do not see them, I miss them and talk to them as often as possible.

As many of you know my mother went through and is now in remission from cancer and has been free and clear of all cancer now for 3 years, thankfully and fingers crossed she will stay this way. Mom and I are and have always been very close and I can not imagine my life without her in it. She is and will always be my best friend no matter what happens or what we go through or how long we go without seeing each other. I love my mommy.
My father and I, although we have had a tough time of it at some points in my life, and he did not deal too well with the whole me being gay for the first few years, we have grown closer and are getting along quite well and it is nice to have them both in my life at this time. My father has been going through kidney dialysis now for two years and we almost lost him on New Years of 2012 which I am so thankful that we didn't. I can not imagine life without both my parents for me and also for them. The have been married for 52 years this year and not many people can say that!

Anyhow just thought I should say I love my mom and dad and to all those who have lost your parents, I feel for you and can not imagine what it is like not to be able to call and talk to them when you want to.