So much to do

Well so much to do here in the house and so little time it seems, Tomorrow is New Years Eve and we are having a party, time to have some fun in our lives!
Yesterday was another extremely busy day and we got a lot accomplished , not as much as I would have like, but at least things are getting done and we are on our way to completion. We finished the dry wall in the spare room upstairs and I painted the pantry doors with chalkboard paint, a cool color to I might add, you ask why two grown men need a chalk board in the kitchen, why simple I answer, to leave notes, make lists and write down groceries we may need.
Today I am going to take down the Christmas tree and get that all put away, try and put dry wall up on the ceilings in the dining room and if I feel like it sew my leather backing for the island, yes I said leather, we have decided to make leather panels for the back side of the island and I am going to sew them into suares and then glue them on, should look really cool.
Then tomorrow I need to clean up the house, get some alcohol , a very important thing, make a few appie plates and then have a nap so I can get good and shit faced tomorrow night, because damn it I need to and so does Matt, we need some release from work around the house and nothing like New Years, good friends and a lot of fun.
Not sure if I mentioned , but on Christmas day I talked  to my mother, was nice, and so needed. I missed hearing her voice and am glad that she is well. As for the rest of the family, I realized on Christmas you don't give a shit and maybe I don't either anymore, I have all the family I need with Mom, Matt, his parents and a few good friends.
Need to send out a special thanks to great friends and neighbors Jeff for coming to Home Depot the other day and helping me to load dry wall and everything else and to Louisa for the loan of her truck so we could actually pick up everything that was needed to move forward in this house. Our neighbors are amazing.
Seriously time to get my ass off the couch now and get to work, have a great day and a Happy New Year, see you all in 2013, thanks again for reading and for everyones support over a tough year in 2012, I have great friends and I love you all.

Another Christmas gone

Well yesterday was Christmas and I have to one of the best that Matthew and I have spent together. We had a lovely relaxing day and a great evening as well and I took a day off from working here in the house.
Got up yesterday morning and sent off my Christmas text and well wishes to people. Then did laundry and emptied the dishwasher and made breakfast, nice and relaxing and perfect. Matt and I do not exchange gifts at all so we only got a gift from his parents and one from Wayne, lovely and beautiful gifts though!
I extended an olive branch yesterday and phoned my mom, we talked for a little while on the phone, not a long time but I have to say it was the best gift I could give myself was talking to her and hearing her voice again, it was not a long conversation but it was an amazing feeling after almost 7 months to just talk to her.
The we went to Xaviers and had Italian cake and Espresso , after that we went to Flora house for Christams dinner with her two children, it was a great dinner and an amazing time. After that home for a break and to play Tennis on the X Box and then over to Jeff and Mara for a drink. The perfect end to the perfect Christmas. Thank you to our fabulous neighbors one and all for making Christmas day and night so great. We are truly lucky to be here and live in a great neighborhood.
As for the house we are plugging along with things and slowly but surely getting it done. On Christmas Eve day I refinished the pot rack and got it down to the original metal and made ti look as if it were just welded and very industrial feel to it which fits the kitchen perfectly, Today I am going to do a bit of dry wall and the hopefully get around to painting the kitchen a second coat and maybe the bathroom if I can find some more white paint. Later I have to go over to mara and Jeff and get some wood and start to build a closet for the master bedroom and then move the dresser and wardrobe to my closet in the basement. I can now see the end of the house and work here in sight and man does that ever feel good.
I want to wish you all a great holiday season and may you have the best in and all you deserve in 2013.

What Next

 Well I figure I better catch you all up on things and what is going on in our lives this December. Last week was a crazy busy week and Monday I had a total of 3 specialist appointments and that took up a huge part of my day starting at 6am when i had to get on the bus on go out to the hospital, not fun at all. The good news is the Horners Syndrome is actually gone , they say, the bad news is that I have what they call cluster headaches and will actually suffer from these now for the rest of my life. The specialist said I may have days where I don't get a headache and sometime I may be lucky and it will go away for a week or a month or a year, but they will always be there and I will suffer from them for the rest of my life and not really a thing I can do about them, except learn to deal with them.
 On my family side I am totally done with them now and have decided to have a picture burning party soon and get rid of all memories of them completely, this is how I will say good bye to all of them and never have to be reminded of them again. One more note on family, James do not ever call here again and threaten us with anything, I have saved every voice mail from you and our lawyers are working on it right now, I have also sent them to the police and had them here so they can hear your drunken ramblings. Leave us alone. I have left all of you alone and will go so far as to file a no contact against all of you if you keep it up. There is nothing slanderous in my blogs, only my opinions, and how I feel so if you don't like it then don't read it.
 As far as the house goes we have been working lots on stuff and the bathroom is now almost complete and it is all mudded, sanded and painted, tiles are almost complete, today I need to put up the wallpaper. I have also stripped the floor in the living room back to its' original from and finish from a 103 years ago when it was first installed in the house. Now I have to stain and varnish them and make them look great. I have also restained and varnished our island in the kitchen.
Well time for me to get to work and get some stuff done for the day. Have a great day all and talk to you soon.

Tomorrow

December 1st is approaching quickly and I do be lieve this will be a very hard day for all my family and for myself, this would have been Bradleys 41st birthday and it is still hard to believe that he is not here with us.
It has been just over 6 months now and it is not any easier.
There is not a day that goes by that I do not think of him and miss him. It never seems to get easier but does seem to get different when you loose someone that you care about. I still think it was so unfair for him to be taken from his family and all of us who loved and knew him.
I know I will never be as good as Brad was and no one will ever replace him in any way. I now realize he was the glue that held this family together and now that he is gone, that glue has disappeared with him. You never realize how important anyone is when they are with you so all I can say to that is remind them every chance you get how important they are.
I miss you Bradley and I wish you were here so I could tell you how much I love you and wish you a Happy Birthday.

I was going through boxes the other day and found old family pictures and it made me happy and sad at the same time, there were picture of the whole family from years ago, some of Grandma and Grandpa Potter, and one of Grandma and Grandpa Metzger. Just a mix of everything when we were all happy and got along and were all in Alberta and here and together. Pictures are always a great memory and reminder of better times in ones life.

I sent my mother a letter and birthday card the other day, Her birthday was yesterday. Happy Birthday Mom. I am not sure I will ever speak to most of my family again , but do know and hope to reconnect with Mom again. I miss her more than anyone and just want to pick up the phone somedays and tell her that. I wish I could but know I am not ready to yet. Hard to be without her. We use to talk on the phone at least 2 to 3 times a week.

As for the rest of my family I do not have much to say though I do say this my thoughts go out to Patti and the kids tomorrow because I know it will be hard for all of you, wishing you the best.

I wish all my family well over the holidays and hold no grudges against any of you, I just have nothing to say to any of you or want to speak with any of you at this point and time and for some of you probably never again, I am sure the feeling is mutual.

Matt and I have built a live of our own, and have a great family with his parents and friends who surround us on a daily basis, either here in Toronto or throughout the world.Thank you to all those people who are in our lives and with us daily. We love you very much and appreciate your friendships.

The holidays are soon approaching and I just want to take a moment to say Happy Holidays to everyone, whether we speak or not, I hope you all have a great Holiday season.

Working Our Asses Off

Well happy Hump Day to all. It has been a great week here and we are accomplishing so much here in our little house. I did some more mudding of drywall and tiling yesterday in the bathroom. Today is hanging the rest of the drywall upstairs and preparing to paint and wall paper the bathroom and then cut tiles and get things done so we can complete another room.
Then I need to run to Homo Depot and pick up another spool of wire and finish the last little bit of wiring in the house, Kitchen lighting, baseboard heater in back porch, lighting for back bedroom, and plug-ins in our master bedroom. Can't wait till it is all done and then all that will be left in the house is refinishing floors, mudding and sanding dry wall and painting and wall papering rooms.
We have picked out a very dark stain for our floors, going to carpet the upstairs bedrooms. Life is good and we are so happy here in our house and with everything that we are doing and have done. Love it all.
Matt has been sick this week and his back has been really bad and bothering him a lot. I hope he gets better soon and they just do this damn surgery, it has been too long and it is just stupid how long we have to wait for him to even see a specialist at all.
So far today I have not completed a thing and been sitting here on the couch relaxing and trying to get rid of my damn headaches, other than taking the dogs for a walk and bringing the green bin back in, i really can't say that I have done too much, i will however get my ass in gear this afternoon and get things done. Need to get that tile cut so when Matt gets home I can finish the bathroom and move on to the next room.
On the other side of the fence I still have not heard a word from any of my family and am guessing I won't for a while, lonely at times but i am a strong person and will get through anything i put my mind to. I miss some of them somedays but there are other days that I don't even think of them and am happy with the family I have, which consists of a few cousins, some great friends, Matt and his parents and our wonderful animals. This family that I now have proven to be far better and more supportive in any way and in every way compared to my immediate family.
I do however miss my mother, the rest can rot in hell as far as I am concerned and yes you can all say I will be there first and this is quite possibly true. I will call Mom in the next month or so and have written letters to everyone else and I will send those out soon as I am happy with them. Just a final good bye to them and what I need to say.
Any how i need to get my ass back to work, Have a great day and thank you for reading.

More and More everyday

Well we have been doing more everyday in the house and getting things done slowly but surely and it is all starting to come together and looking great. I have completed the lights in the bathroom and master bedroom and all electrical plugs in the back bedroom. Yesterday I went up in the attic again and finished hooking up the bathroom exhaust fan, what a challenge that was, so tight up there, I went to move and got roofing nails stuck in the top of my head, scraped and cut a bit and man it hurt, but it is done now. Only have to go up the attic for one more thing and that is to position and put the light in the back bedroom. It will be so nice to get all that done and not have to crawl up in the attic again for a while, thank fucken god, I hate it up there!
On schedule for this week is sanding and painting of walls and maybe lighting in the kitchen, which was finally purchased yesterday, Matt rode his bike downtown and picked it up at Canadian Tire, so now we have all our lighting for the house, so a bit more wire to purchase and away we go, also have to put our baseboard heater in the back room.
We are going to have a gay day today and go out to the bars and Church Street, we have not been out at all to a bar or had a gay day since Pride, way back the end of June. Looking forward to getting out and having some fun and a few drinks. Then home to watch our shows tonight. But first I need to change the bandages on my head, shave and do some manscaping so I look gay enough to go out.
The weather has been great here as of lately and I am going to go out and enjoy it and take the girls for a walk here soon. They love gong around the block and the fresh air. Last night was a quiet night and we have been having a date night on Staurdays lately. We watch a movie and just relax and then usually watch Saturday Night Live while relaxing in bed.
Mara and Jeff dropped over for a bit and had a drink and smoke with us which was a nice break from a horrible movie, The new Spiderman movie sucked and I would not waste my time to watch it again. Anyhow I leave it up to you, just not my taste.
So this week will be busy and we have lots to do. Matt has appointments all week and is very busy as well. So to everyone who reads this, have a great day, enjoy the fab weather here in Toronto or where ever you may be and thank you for reading, Bye for now

Coming Together

Things are really coming together here in our little house in Toronto. Matthew tiled the kitchen backsplash and also tiled the front entry way. Looks amazing!
 I wall papered the front entry way and also paint the brick and board in the front entry so we finally have a total room done, love it!
 This week I ran the electrical for upstairs and we finally have a light in our bedroom, an exhaust fan and plug in the bathroom, plugs in the back bedroom and hallway, so nice to have power and not extension cords all the way upstairs. I am actually proud of myself and of Matt for what we are doing and that we are doing it all on our own.
 Today I have to go up in the attic again and wire the bathroom lights, cut a hole for the exhaust in the bathroom and cut a light hole and run more wire for electrical plugs in the master bedroom, things are really shaping up, unfortunately it is a lot of stuff that you can not see, but fuck it looks great.
 On the other side of our lives we have both had a cold off and on for the last two weeks and I have been suffering from a lack of sleep and headaches so it has been a painful week for me. Matt has also been in extreme pain because of his back and going to physio twice a week is not helping as of yet. He finally got a call from his doctors and is seeing a surgeon, though it is not until February. Hope it gets done and he gets better soon, so hard on him.
 I have also been doing some work for our neighbor and am looking to get back to work here soon as well, been applying for a few jobs here and there and thinking of going back to work part time at least so we can get a little of our lives back.
 Well time for me to run and get a few groceries and then get my ass back to work on the house, Have a great day and thanks for reading, talk to you soon.