It is Tuesday and almost the end of June, I have now been in Toronto for just over 5 weeks and am enjoying myself , maybe a little too much, but I must say I do love it and I have changed a great deal. I never thought that being 41 could be so much fun, but my god it sure as hell is. Just a lesson to everyone , life does get better after 40 and I am telling you if you said that to me anytime in the past I would have laughed at you for hours. Well who is laughing now, me and I try to everyday, just because I am having fun. My job is just that a job and I go to work and then come home and am done after that, instead of calls at all hours and having to open and close a Restaurant, I just get to go to work and I like that. I found it hard for the first few weeks not to act like a manager, but now I am realizing that it is nice to go in , make my money and just leave, how perfect is that.
Today I went to work and discovered that they had changed the schedule and not let me know, so I went and had a drink with the one cook and sat on the patio at another restaurant for a bit, so relaxing, then I stopped at Out on the Street and bought myself a new toy, fun, fun. I love that store. On the way home I got caught in a total down pour of rain and was totally soaked when I got home, but oh well that is life.
Matt arrives early in the morning and I am going to get up at 4:30am and go to the airport and pick him up and then come home and relax for a bit. I work at 4pm now tomorrow, but that is cool. It is only till 8:30pm and I am happy cause today I can just relax and do what ever comes my way. Anyhow, time for dinner. You all have a great night, love your gay neighbor.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Monday, June 27, 2011
Pride week in Toronto
Well Pride kicked off on Friday of last week and is now here until the 4th of July with shows and the parade next Sunday and men , men , men, all over the city. Here for a short time and a lot of fun, and from all over the world. I love Pride and all the people that come to visit and all the interesting ones that I get to meet every year. It is so much fun and so busy.
This year will be a great Pride here in Toronto, because I am working and Matthew will be here for 10 days starting on Wednesday and here until the 11th of July. I honestly can't wait to see him. It feels like forever ago since we were together. I have so much planned and am so excited to show him the Toronto that I love, not the Toronto that he has seen before, but the one that I see every day and fell in love with years ago.
I finished painting the apartment today and everything is now done in here, the cabinets are all painted, I put in new counter tops and new faucets in the kitchen, also a new shower head in ht bathroom and painted the entire living space that I love. I am really truly now enjoying living in my tiny apartment and actually getting quite used to it again. I never thought that I could get used to apartment living again and not having the house and the yard, but all and all it is okay and we are happy here and I don't get woken up by noisy tenants who are having their little parties at 4am. Also a lot less space to clean and a lot less stuff or me to do. Anyhow I really do miss the house and all the things it offered but also not all the things that came with it as well.
Any how Happy Pride week Toronto and I will see you all soon. Drop by for breakfast some day soon. I am there 5 days a week and love to see some old friends. Take care and ta ta for now.
This year will be a great Pride here in Toronto, because I am working and Matthew will be here for 10 days starting on Wednesday and here until the 11th of July. I honestly can't wait to see him. It feels like forever ago since we were together. I have so much planned and am so excited to show him the Toronto that I love, not the Toronto that he has seen before, but the one that I see every day and fell in love with years ago.
I finished painting the apartment today and everything is now done in here, the cabinets are all painted, I put in new counter tops and new faucets in the kitchen, also a new shower head in ht bathroom and painted the entire living space that I love. I am really truly now enjoying living in my tiny apartment and actually getting quite used to it again. I never thought that I could get used to apartment living again and not having the house and the yard, but all and all it is okay and we are happy here and I don't get woken up by noisy tenants who are having their little parties at 4am. Also a lot less space to clean and a lot less stuff or me to do. Anyhow I really do miss the house and all the things it offered but also not all the things that came with it as well.
Any how Happy Pride week Toronto and I will see you all soon. Drop by for breakfast some day soon. I am there 5 days a week and love to see some old friends. Take care and ta ta for now.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Wednesday
Well we are back at Wednesday which means many thing to me, it is hump day, middle of the week and I am back to work, days off are done and I am in at 4pm for my short shitty shift. Things are going quite well at the job though and I am all and all very happy with everything here thus far. The dogs are doing great and they are getting use to living in a small apartment again.
So far today I have ran to Canadian Tire and picked up a couple things for the apartment, I really should start making a list so when I move out of here I can take it all with me, I will any ways, after all i am the one making improvements, no damn way I am leaving that for someone else if I ever relocate.
Yesterday was a crazy busy day and I spent most of it running around and doing stuff that just needed to be done, I went shopping with Wayne for a bit and we hit up all the old haunts and second hand stores. I made a couple really good scores, like some Cuisenart Frying Pans for $4 a piece. Love it when I get great deals, as I am extremely thrifty. I also got a gorgeous remote control center, done in black leather, and a really hot red leather basket, I love these things, they create great storage and look extremely hot.
Today on the way back from Canadian Tire, I stopped at Out on the Street , a great little gay store here in Toronto and got myself a pair of really nice designer underwear, Deisel, which were 50% off which I love and they look so hot, will send some of you a picture later, after all it is underwear, no different than a swimsuit, right?
Just relaxing here on the couch at the moment and going to work here soon, Have to take the girls out again before I go, just to avoid any little accidents that could happen, not that they have yet. Although I am sure last week it was really close with me being gone about 9 and 1/2 hours a day for 4 days straight and then 6 and 1/2 on the weekends. After being out so much in the last 2 years in between Matt and I walking them all the time in Vancouver.
Tonight if it is cool after work I may paint a little more , but you never know. I may do what I did last night too which was much more fun and I will keep as my little secret for now. Anyhow , hope you all have a great day and I will talk with you tomorrow. Thanks for reading and love from your Gay Neighbor!
So far today I have ran to Canadian Tire and picked up a couple things for the apartment, I really should start making a list so when I move out of here I can take it all with me, I will any ways, after all i am the one making improvements, no damn way I am leaving that for someone else if I ever relocate.
Yesterday was a crazy busy day and I spent most of it running around and doing stuff that just needed to be done, I went shopping with Wayne for a bit and we hit up all the old haunts and second hand stores. I made a couple really good scores, like some Cuisenart Frying Pans for $4 a piece. Love it when I get great deals, as I am extremely thrifty. I also got a gorgeous remote control center, done in black leather, and a really hot red leather basket, I love these things, they create great storage and look extremely hot.
Today on the way back from Canadian Tire, I stopped at Out on the Street , a great little gay store here in Toronto and got myself a pair of really nice designer underwear, Deisel, which were 50% off which I love and they look so hot, will send some of you a picture later, after all it is underwear, no different than a swimsuit, right?
Just relaxing here on the couch at the moment and going to work here soon, Have to take the girls out again before I go, just to avoid any little accidents that could happen, not that they have yet. Although I am sure last week it was really close with me being gone about 9 and 1/2 hours a day for 4 days straight and then 6 and 1/2 on the weekends. After being out so much in the last 2 years in between Matt and I walking them all the time in Vancouver.
Tonight if it is cool after work I may paint a little more , but you never know. I may do what I did last night too which was much more fun and I will keep as my little secret for now. Anyhow , hope you all have a great day and I will talk with you tomorrow. Thanks for reading and love from your Gay Neighbor!
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
painting
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After the girls and I came back in we organized , washed and put everything away where it belongs for now, then the three of us had our afternoon nap and slept for an hour. Love napping with my girls, gives me someone to cuddle with and they are so cute, they get right under the covers and just cuddle right in, makes me not feel so alone.
After our lovely nap, I made dinner and then commenced to start painting. It was fun and so hot, my god , all I got done was the hallway and one wall in the living room and by the time I was done I was sweating bullets. But so far so good, I painted white which will come as a shock to anyone who actually knows me at all, they will know I am not a white paint person but love my colors and the brighter and darker the better.
Then I chatted with Matthew on msn and talked with mom on the phone. Both of which bring me a great joy and a huge smile on a daily basis. Matt and I talk daily on msn and have what is called a video call so we can see each other as well. It is so nice and he is looking really good, though he always has to me!.
Working mostly days this week and am so happy about that. The only night I work this week is tomorrow night and the I work all mornings for the next 4 days. This brings joy and hopefully more money to me in every way. Have appointments all day today although they are sporadic and I will have times in between to run home and take the girls out for their long needed walks that they love so much. PRIDE starts here on Friday and then the big weekend is the July long weekend and I know it is going to be crazy and there will be no rest for the weekend at all, not a problem, I love all the people that come in to the city for PRIDE and couldn't imagine not working it.
Any how time for me to get my ass in gear, dressed and out the door. Hope you all have a great day. Love from your gay neighbor.
After the girls and I came back in we organized , washed and put everything away where it belongs for now, then the three of us had our afternoon nap and slept for an hour. Love napping with my girls, gives me someone to cuddle with and they are so cute, they get right under the covers and just cuddle right in, makes me not feel so alone.
After our lovely nap, I made dinner and then commenced to start painting. It was fun and so hot, my god , all I got done was the hallway and one wall in the living room and by the time I was done I was sweating bullets. But so far so good, I painted white which will come as a shock to anyone who actually knows me at all, they will know I am not a white paint person but love my colors and the brighter and darker the better.
Then I chatted with Matthew on msn and talked with mom on the phone. Both of which bring me a great joy and a huge smile on a daily basis. Matt and I talk daily on msn and have what is called a video call so we can see each other as well. It is so nice and he is looking really good, though he always has to me!.
Working mostly days this week and am so happy about that. The only night I work this week is tomorrow night and the I work all mornings for the next 4 days. This brings joy and hopefully more money to me in every way. Have appointments all day today although they are sporadic and I will have times in between to run home and take the girls out for their long needed walks that they love so much. PRIDE starts here on Friday and then the big weekend is the July long weekend and I know it is going to be crazy and there will be no rest for the weekend at all, not a problem, I love all the people that come in to the city for PRIDE and couldn't imagine not working it.
Any how time for me to get my ass in gear, dressed and out the door. Hope you all have a great day. Love from your gay neighbor.
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Dreams and Reality
Well I have dreams and then I have my reality. The reality is I live in a small apartment in Toronto with my 2 girls and work an awful lot to pay the bills and get buy. And quite honestly I really don't mind doing all this as it is just part of life or at least my life, though I truly wish I was not here alone and without the person that I honestly and totally love. It is hard and when I get to talk to Matthew it just brings a smile on my face that can not be replaced with anything else in the world. If I have a bad day at all , it is totally brightened when I see a text message from him in the morning or a chat with him on msn.No matter anything that has happened with us in the past at all, I truly believe that he is my lobster and that we are destined to be together and I know that we still love each other a great deal. It is just that right at the moment life has taken us both on a different path. I refuse to give up and will fight for us until I know there is no end to doing so. When they say absence makes the heart grow fonder, it is true. I believe I am happier here in Toronto, because I have a good job and friends that get me through my days, it is my nights that I am alone and I realize the one thing I am missing here is Matt. Not an hour goes by when I don't think of him and wish he were here with me. That is my dream and I refuse to let go of that because deep in my heart I know some day soon we will be together again and we will truly have everything if we are a couple.
I had a dream the other night and dreamed Matt was next to me in bed, I reached over to cuddle and it was my little dog Storm and I grabbed her and she let out a little yelp, poor thing! I also have had a recurring dream of my marriage and every time I kiss my groom, it is always Matthew. I will hold on to that and believe in the best in life. I need to be more positive and love life more and that is what I am now doing. Anyhow I hope that anyone in love realizes what you have, hold onto it and work through your problems and move on from there. If you dread an argument , it will probably happen. The more you concentrate on the negative, the more likely it is to happen. Just saying.
Anyhow off to work soon, have a great day and to all the fathers out there , have a Happy Fathers Day.
I had a dream the other night and dreamed Matt was next to me in bed, I reached over to cuddle and it was my little dog Storm and I grabbed her and she let out a little yelp, poor thing! I also have had a recurring dream of my marriage and every time I kiss my groom, it is always Matthew. I will hold on to that and believe in the best in life. I need to be more positive and love life more and that is what I am now doing. Anyhow I hope that anyone in love realizes what you have, hold onto it and work through your problems and move on from there. If you dread an argument , it will probably happen. The more you concentrate on the negative, the more likely it is to happen. Just saying.
Anyhow off to work soon, have a great day and to all the fathers out there , have a Happy Fathers Day.
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Thursday
Well first off lets talk about that lack of attempt by the Vancouver Canucks to take home the Stanley Cup.
What the hell boys? Did you just give up after game 6? I just have to ask, because last night, you didn't even look like you were trying to win. I actually left work early and got home to watch what I was hoping to be a great game, it wasn't! Now lets talk about these supposed fans who started fires, destroyed public property and looted stuff from innocent people and businesses, what the hell are you thinking? So we lost the game , the cup, does this mean you have to destroy the city and cars and light fires? I was shocked and horrified by your behavior, shame on you Vancouver!
Now that is my rant for the day.
I am doing alright here in Vancouver and realize that I now have a regret in my life and want to share that with you. I have never had any regrets but this one I realize I do have. My regret is simple and it is that I did not listen to people, especially Matthew, that I should be more open in my life and in all aspects of my life and realize the difference between a few things. I should also not be so damn judge mental about things and just accept what people do and try to go with the flow. I am trying this now and realizing it is making me a happier me. So I will say that you are all right and yes I was wrong this time. Perhaps if I had changed a little of my thinking, maybe I would still be with Matthew and not on my own, perhaps?
Anyhow I have another day at work, day number 3, 3 more to go and then I get a day off. I can't wait for that! These 9 hour shifts this week are actually killing me and so tiring, but at least I will have a good pay check at the end of the month, for rent and all my bills. Still have a couple things that I| need to buy and will get soon. I need either a microwave or a convection toaster oven for the apartment here. I am not sure and am quite torn on which to purchase but I will let you know when I get it done and decide.
Day number 3 of the Canada Post lock out and day number 2 of the Air Canada strike. Not that I care about Air Canada, they suck any ways and need to just take a lesson from westjet or some one else who knows what customer service is. Just my opinion.
What the hell boys? Did you just give up after game 6? I just have to ask, because last night, you didn't even look like you were trying to win. I actually left work early and got home to watch what I was hoping to be a great game, it wasn't! Now lets talk about these supposed fans who started fires, destroyed public property and looted stuff from innocent people and businesses, what the hell are you thinking? So we lost the game , the cup, does this mean you have to destroy the city and cars and light fires? I was shocked and horrified by your behavior, shame on you Vancouver!
Now that is my rant for the day.
I am doing alright here in Vancouver and realize that I now have a regret in my life and want to share that with you. I have never had any regrets but this one I realize I do have. My regret is simple and it is that I did not listen to people, especially Matthew, that I should be more open in my life and in all aspects of my life and realize the difference between a few things. I should also not be so damn judge mental about things and just accept what people do and try to go with the flow. I am trying this now and realizing it is making me a happier me. So I will say that you are all right and yes I was wrong this time. Perhaps if I had changed a little of my thinking, maybe I would still be with Matthew and not on my own, perhaps?
Anyhow I have another day at work, day number 3, 3 more to go and then I get a day off. I can't wait for that! These 9 hour shifts this week are actually killing me and so tiring, but at least I will have a good pay check at the end of the month, for rent and all my bills. Still have a couple things that I| need to buy and will get soon. I need either a microwave or a convection toaster oven for the apartment here. I am not sure and am quite torn on which to purchase but I will let you know when I get it done and decide.
Day number 3 of the Canada Post lock out and day number 2 of the Air Canada strike. Not that I care about Air Canada, they suck any ways and need to just take a lesson from westjet or some one else who knows what customer service is. Just my opinion.
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
This is gonna be a long week
I am working 6 days this week and 4 of those are going to be 9 hour shifts. I can't believe it and in 2 weeks we have PRIDE, so that will be extremely busy for me as well. The girls and I are settling in quite well and they are getting use to me being back at work again, which is good for all of us. Next week I work morning at the restaurant and am so thankful for this. Yeah.
Life is treating me good here in Toronto, though it can be very lonely at times, and I still need to get used to the fact that I am single again and on my own. I am not sure that this time I will ever get used to it. I say this because it is not like Matt and I stopped loving each other, we are just in different places in our lives right at the moment and I hate that. I guess what I am saying is that life is just not fair sometimes and we just need to take it as it comes and get used to it and do what we need to, to survive!
Tonight is the final game of the Canucks and Bruins Final for the Stanley Cup and yes I will have that on as soon as I get home and am of course hoping that the Canucks win the cup. That will make history and be their first win ever.
Well time to get my ass in gear and take the girls out again before work. I have cleaned the apartment, brushed the girls teeth and hair and manged to get myself dressed as well. So in the end I am ready for whatever the day has in store for me now. You all have a great day and I will write again soon. Ta ta for now from your gay neighbor.
Life is treating me good here in Toronto, though it can be very lonely at times, and I still need to get used to the fact that I am single again and on my own. I am not sure that this time I will ever get used to it. I say this because it is not like Matt and I stopped loving each other, we are just in different places in our lives right at the moment and I hate that. I guess what I am saying is that life is just not fair sometimes and we just need to take it as it comes and get used to it and do what we need to, to survive!
Tonight is the final game of the Canucks and Bruins Final for the Stanley Cup and yes I will have that on as soon as I get home and am of course hoping that the Canucks win the cup. That will make history and be their first win ever.
Well time to get my ass in gear and take the girls out again before work. I have cleaned the apartment, brushed the girls teeth and hair and manged to get myself dressed as well. So in the end I am ready for whatever the day has in store for me now. You all have a great day and I will write again soon. Ta ta for now from your gay neighbor.
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