Good Morning All, yes up extremely early again, got out of bed at 6:30am, not that I wanted to, I just did! I don't think I have had a proper sleep since Brad passed away and am hoping that will get back to normal soon, I have tried everything from prescription sleeping pills to just being so damn tired I should just pass out for hours on end, I don't. So I will keep hoping and I guess as long as I am getting 5 to 6 hours a day I am good.
Yesterday was a day of deep thought and many tears and I am not sure why, but I just felt sad from the moment I woke up. I was on face book when I got up yesterday as I am everyday and I always go to Brads memorial page and read stories left about him and I found a picture that Brad had emailed me with his cat so i posted that on there and all of a sudden I was just in tears. Went out to the garden, sat there pulling weeds and cried for a good half hour.Then all day I was just not myself. Everything set me off from just thinking of family and what they have said and done to me, and missing them and being able to speak with them and can't because they no longer want anything to do with me, it just hurts and I guess just made me sad for a day. Anyhow I phoned Patti in the afternoon and got to talk with her for a bit and it just felt nice to know I had family and she was there and we could talk, cheered me up a lot, as do Alicia and Amanda every night on face book with their pokes and chats we have. Thank you so much ladies.
Today is another day and life goes on and there is so much to do and get done, I am not sure anymore if we are behind schedule, on time or ahead of where we should be , but I am happy with our progress and where we are because I know that we have done it all ourselves and it is our house, Our little semi detached white house in the middle of the street. I love our neighborhood, our neighbors and just everything about it, it is so friendly here and so welcoming in every way. perfect to sit down and become your gay neighbor. So today Matt is going to finish the plumbing and get the new bathroom up and running, I think I may start tiling the floor and get that underway so by the weekend we can be using that bathroom and I can sit in our new soaker tub for an hour or so, God I love that tub. That is todays project.
Tomorrow, well that is another day and we are never sure what that will bring. Matt and I sit here everynight and discuss what each one of us is going to do the next day and projects that we need to get done. Will let you know how today goes and what is in store for us tomorrow. I hope everyone is having a great week and please take care. Talk soon, bye for now from your gay neighbor.
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