Wow, It has been 3 weeks here already

I just can't believe that I have been back in Toronto now for 3 weeks and am totally happy and sad at the same time. I am happy to be working and back in Toronto with friends, I am sad to be this away from Matthew and the cats. It is so nice when I get to talk to him on the phone and just hear his voice and what he has been up to. I am so glad that he is becoming so honest with me and that I have changed as well and am becoming so much more open and exploring more of myself and my life.
It feels really good for me and maybe Matt was right and I do need to be more open in many ways. I guess after so many shit relationships I just totally closed myself off to anything but what I thought was the ideal scenario. What an idiot am I and I guess sometimes you just have to explore the other side that you once thought was so wrong and yes even at 41, open your mind and broaden your bloody horizons and live life.
I work hard and am now learning to play hard as well and have a bit of fun and to not be so damn judge mental in what I do and who I do it with. Just a lesson that took me a long time to learn I guess.
There is not much else I miss in Vancouver except for Matt, his parents and the cats , as for everyone else they really weren't a large or important part of my life any more.
As for being back in Toronto, work here is going well and I am getting used to it again, have been working shorter shifts and getting back into the swing of things, well this week I have to work a lot of 9 hour days and that is cool with me as long as it gets busier at night and I can make more money. other than that , the weekends have been amazing and I am kept busy running my ass off for at least 6 hours and making some pretty decent coin. It is all relevant and at least I have some money now which is very nice as I can actually catch up on some of my bills and get come credit cards paid off and then safe for something I will eventually need in the future. Haven't figured that out yet, but man oh man it  would sure be nice to travel a bit for once in my life. Well any how it is 11:30 here and I am going to go out for a bit. You all have a great night and I will talk to you soon. Thanks for reading.