Ho Hum

Well today and yesterday have been extremely busy here for me, not only am I still, yes still looking for work and have found nothing yet, but I am doing everything I can to keep busy here at home at the same time. I am going crazy, I swear it! Any ways the last 2 days I have been down in the basement working on the workshop/work out room and reorganizing everything from the paint to the power tools and supplies. So much to do and so little time, well actually all the time in the world, unfortunately I guess.
It is really coming together though and has been 2 days in the basement and a lot of heavy lifting and I even managed to crush my right middle finger when I dropped a bag of cement on it,OUCH!!!
Matthew is getting sick again and not sure with what, but am hoping I don't catch it. I really don't like being sick, though I am quite sure no one does. I hope he gets better soon and doesn't give me anything before that.
Are dear young friend Froy is back today well, He went up to Squamish to spend the weekend with his dad again and I have developed the utmost respect for him to handle things so well since the passing of his Mom and to be there for his dad so much when I can only imagine how much he needs his son to be close.
The weather today has been crap, nothing but pouring rain all damn day here again and it is not so much the rain that I hate but every time I take the girls out for their pee, I spend more time drying them off when we get back. God they must really hate the rain, we can be out there for 10 minutes and in that time I am soaked so I can only imagine how cold they get when they are that wet.
We didn't go out this Sunday, I guess I just can't right now, because I can't relax with the money thing hanging over my head and hate that feeling an awful lot. I almost feel guilty that I have no job, but most of all some days I just feel undesirable in every way, I really don't like feeling that way at all! I am a very confident and proud man. I also know deep down that I am more than qualified for the most of the positions I apply for, but unfortunately there is so much competition that I am unsuccessful at this point and it has been so long that I am trying really hard not to get depressed. As I told Bo the other night you can only get kicked in the balls so often and then you just say screw it and leave. That is my way of saying if I can't get employment here soon, Matt and I are going to have to discuss relocating out of Vancouver.I will give it until the end of August and then it may just be time to move on and move up I hope!