Today is the day I get to file my taxes, finally got all my T4's and am ready to go. Hopefully I get a refund and can pay off some debt with it. I actually don't mind doing my income tax, I know boring! I have become a typical old man in many ways and am not sure if this is a good or a bad thing , but whatever makes you happy. I feel like I am stuck in a rut in so many ways and am not sure how to dig myself out.
I have become accustomed to sitting at home and cleaning the house and looking for work everyday seems to be the same and they are really starting to meld together, this is so not me. I am also I think becoming a very depressing person and perhaps this is why people no longer want to be around me and hang out like i use to. I am not sure whether 40 did this or whether all the unemployment and trying to keep myself busy is to blame, or perhaps it is just me and everything that has gone on in the last year or so.
Who knows and does anyone really care, I know that Matt does, that is for sure! But I guess I have to learn to care again and maybe if I start to think more positive then maybe I can get back to where I was and who i use to be! I need to get back to the man who use to go out and go shopping , have fun on Sundays and call friends just because, this is what I need to do. It just seemed a whole lot easier when i was working and able to socialize as part of my job. I miss that and hope I find work soon. I just have to change my train of thoughts and turn things around for myself as I know there isn't anyone else who can do this for me.
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