Good morning on this glorious Saturday here in Vancouver BC. It is bright and sunny and day number 9 without a smoke for me, making me a bit crazy and slightly bitchy at times I know, but I am doing my best and getting through it day by day.
Last night was a lovely night and very relaxing for Matt and I, we just relaxed on the couch and watched movies and spent some great time together, love it when I can just be next to him and not say a word but still enjoy my time with him. The girls also cuddle up with us as well and we all just sit together like a big family that we are.
Today will be my day to sit on the couch all day and just veg out for a while and play my stupid slot machine games on face book, because I can! Also trying to catch up with friends that I have fallen out of touch with and not really talked to in a while , because I am now realizing that with my funk I am in, I have forgotten to stay in touch with everyone. I can be such an ass at times, or at least I am realizing this now and I can change this and get out of my funk soon and get back to being who I should be and the fun loving and happy guy I use to be and should be again.
I really need to snap out of this and soon and am not sure what else I can do to do this, but I know that I am not as happy nor am I as outgoing without a job and I just find this totally weird and in the end it is something I may not conquer unless I get a job, maybe that is the balance I need to be happy! Part of this is I got so use to having a certain amount of money and being able to shop and buy what I like and wanted when I wanted to and the other part is I really need to be busy and doing something so I don't get bored. It is a Gemini thing, we just need constant change and like to be doing something all the time.
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