Well it is Sunday and I only have 5 days left in the with the man I love and thought I would always be with and some day married too! Also leaving the city I once loved and thought I would always be living, all I truly feel is sad and so empty. I really have a hard time believing it is all over and every day it just gets more real. I get emotional now on a daily basis and am not sure whether I am angry at myself or just feeling sorry for myself and trying to move on. I guess I will figure that out in time. No one here really wants to say good bye and I have realized that all my friends here were not truly friends at all. We have grown apart so much and we have all changed and just grown apart. As for the neighbors, most of them were just nice to me for Matthews sake I am guessing. The only neighbor who I will truly miss is Isabella and John and their lovely new little girl.
I am going to miss Nadia and Sparky a lot, I love those cats and will miss my cuddles with Nadia every night and every morning and how they follow Rogue and Storm to the park for a walk. I am going to most of all miss Matthew and just looking at him while he is sleeping and the way he looks at me with that huge smile in his eyes. I know that he truly loves me and that is why this is so damn hard on both of us. It is just crazy in more ways than one.
Have a little work to try and get done this week for Matts parents weather permitting and I really have to get my ass in gear and just get it done. The packing a furniture wrapping is all done for me and the furniture and all my stuff gets picked up on Friday and the girls and I leave on Saturday. This will be my saddest day, saying good bye to a true love is going to be hard and I can't imagine it right at the moment and won't believe it until I actually board the plane and he is not in the seat next to me.
Anyways that is all I have to say for today. I hope you all have a great Sunday. Survivor Finale tonight, I am excited about that.
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