The whole thing with this and my outburst is that how can Vancouver Transit justify a 173 dollar fine if the transit ticket is 2.50. I consider this ridiculous and just stupid. I can see a 15, or even a 25 dollar fine but hell, to fine me 10% more than the average speeding ticket. This is why I am upset and if they persist on this ticket, I will never pay it. I will go to jail and cost them money in that way and then I will continue to protest Vancouver Transit and what their little so called cops should be doing. Stop the muggings, the harassment, the beatings and do something useful. God you guys really do suck. You have horrible running hours and one of the worst services for a city so big. Our skytrains only run until 1am daily and don't start running until after 5:30am in the morning. So to anyone who ever goes out prepare yourself for an expensive taxi ride if you are not in the down town core.
This is another part of me by the way I am a very volitile person at times and certain things like this piss me right off. I will be riding my bike or driving my car from now on and transit will not get any of my money at all.
Vancouver transit and its lovely officers...YOU Suck. A ticket cause I could not find my ticket, well may you go to hell, $173 for a 2.50 ticket which I may or may not have had, KISS MY ASS 2 TIMES. You are all asses and I guess I would rather drive drunk than ride your system anyhow. Vancouver transit sucks anyhow and how dare you give me a ticket you ugly old white mother fucker.
And your smart mouth comments, like when I looked for my ticket, oh it must be my first day, I am new at this. Well fuck you wanna be cop. Give me all the tickets you like, and mail them everyday if really like, I really don't care and charge me with all you like. No money shall ever come from me you pigs. I wish you and your transit system , the worst in Canada nothing but the worst ever. You offer the worst service and expect the most payment, well go to hell. I shall pay you nothing ever and you can definitely kiss my ass. I am going to make sure I tell everyone how you are better off to just drive and get stopped by a real cop than you all.
Well let me tell you the officer that stopped me was nothing but an idiot and can only write tickets cause he was an impedent stupid straight Surrey Pig who is so frightened of a gay man that he had no choice but to write a ticket and accuse me of a crime, well I will not be let into his world and shall never pay his fine. NO I will not.
Anyhow we were having a great night until this asshole hauled me off the train. Can you say dickhead, oh I can and I did, this man who gave me the ticket was just an ass, He even had the nerve to ask Matt his age and check his pass as well. What an ass, whos fucken business is it how old we are and where we got on the train.How I wish for the day for a uniform and and a walkie talkie so that I can one day feel inpowered like a transit piggy.By the way I hate cops and I do mean all cops, they are not really there to help , but to impeed your life. I hate them all and have never had a good experience with any of them.
The asshole can arrest me if they want their money. I have no intentions of ever paying this and I would not in any city. Kiss my ass. Sorry to be so rude but I am not a this man was nothing but a self ritious white haired pig from hell, probably a retired security guard from some construction in Surrey, not quite sure. Though I really don`t care what and who he is I am not paying the ticket. By the way I will spend time in jail as I feel I was singled as a white gay male and this was part of the reason for this far right conservative asshole. So if they arrest me I will spend what ever time in the city jail instead of paying a horrible and unjust fine to city of Vancouver Transit. Until then I will return every reminder you send back to you!
The guy was so rude to everyone, not just to me. He actually asked Matt how old he was and then looked at me and said hey you must think it's my first day! Just a total dick head.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Our wonderful Friday Night
Last night Matt made one of his incredible meals again! He made roast chicken, sweet potato, cabbage with onion and apple and bacon, cauliflower. Oh my god, so much food and so amazing. Loved it! Plus we had great company for dinner, his old friend BDGG was up from Seattle for the weekend and joined us for dinner and I finally got to meet him.
My impressions are the man were very good, a very nice person and seems genuine. He reminded me a great deal of a few friends of mine, but one in paticuler, my friend french Richard from Victoria. His demeanor and looks are just so similar that it was uncanny.
Anyway BDGG showed up for dinner and was a great surprise as to what I expected and as to who I have met thus far being back in the city of Vancouver. He was very real and seemed to be a genuinely nice guy. Hard to find here, or at least hard to find for me in the city of Vancouver.
I really enjoyed his company and felt as if I had known him for a long while. Could it be a gay friend who doesn't want sex and can actually just be normal and wonderful and nice to be around? We have very few of those and it seems that they are few and far between!
Anyhow glad to meet you BDGG and hope you have a great weekend in Vancouver. Can't wait to see you again soon.
My impressions are the man were very good, a very nice person and seems genuine. He reminded me a great deal of a few friends of mine, but one in paticuler, my friend french Richard from Victoria. His demeanor and looks are just so similar that it was uncanny.
Anyway BDGG showed up for dinner and was a great surprise as to what I expected and as to who I have met thus far being back in the city of Vancouver. He was very real and seemed to be a genuinely nice guy. Hard to find here, or at least hard to find for me in the city of Vancouver.
I really enjoyed his company and felt as if I had known him for a long while. Could it be a gay friend who doesn't want sex and can actually just be normal and wonderful and nice to be around? We have very few of those and it seems that they are few and far between!
Anyhow glad to meet you BDGG and hope you have a great weekend in Vancouver. Can't wait to see you again soon.
Things I don't like Part 3
Good Morning From your Gay Neighbor
First of all I apologize for not blogging yesterday. The first day I have missed, damn it!
Well let me tell you about something else that I just don't like. I really don't like people who are phony or fake. Why pretend to be something you are not. Save it for those who care okay. I am what I am and I am not going to pretend for anyone so either like me or not for who and what I am.
So I guess I will never understand those who just fake it through their lives. Be who and what you are and be real. It is so frustrating when we have to pretend to be something we are not. The reason I probably dislike this and that it frustrates me is that this is the way i had to live when I tried to live a straight life in front of those who I thought it mattered to. When in reality if I had just come out and been myself I would have gained more respect and been a lot happier as me, a gay man.
So to all I know that it may be hard sometimes , but just be who and what you are and remember we all are wonderful and even more so when we are ourselves.
So in the end no matter how many people we think we are satisfying by pretending, we are making ourselves unhappy and therefor the ones we care about see that and also become dissatisfied with us. Be real people.
First of all I apologize for not blogging yesterday. The first day I have missed, damn it!
Well let me tell you about something else that I just don't like. I really don't like people who are phony or fake. Why pretend to be something you are not. Save it for those who care okay. I am what I am and I am not going to pretend for anyone so either like me or not for who and what I am.
So I guess I will never understand those who just fake it through their lives. Be who and what you are and be real. It is so frustrating when we have to pretend to be something we are not. The reason I probably dislike this and that it frustrates me is that this is the way i had to live when I tried to live a straight life in front of those who I thought it mattered to. When in reality if I had just come out and been myself I would have gained more respect and been a lot happier as me, a gay man.
So to all I know that it may be hard sometimes , but just be who and what you are and remember we all are wonderful and even more so when we are ourselves.
So in the end no matter how many people we think we are satisfying by pretending, we are making ourselves unhappy and therefor the ones we care about see that and also become dissatisfied with us. Be real people.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Estranged
I have become estranged from family and friends, both past and present and feel I have become that way again from a few of my old friends here and some of my new ones here in Vancouver as well. It is difficult to pull away , but it is also sometimes a huge need at times too.
When I pulled away from my family years ago, it was because I came out and told them all I was gay and I just needed my space at my time and I felt they needed to have time to just think about things and digest everything. Perhaps I was wrong to do this as it probably in the ended in the large gap I had my family in my life. I have most of them back in my life now and am very thankful for that on a daily basis.
As for friends that I have become estranged from , there are quite a few over the years. Some of which I have no regrets for being estranged from and some I miss everyday. All that this have happened with have had a reason. I have also been avoided by friends and avoided friends on many occasions fro reasons that are sometimes unknown to even myself at times. But most times I do have a reason and it is just uncomfortable to see certain people for a while. I know eventually that most people I become estranged from will be back in my life. Sometimes we all just need time apart! The one person I will never feel estranged from is my mother.
Anyways signing off for now. Have a great night from your gay neighbor.
When I pulled away from my family years ago, it was because I came out and told them all I was gay and I just needed my space at my time and I felt they needed to have time to just think about things and digest everything. Perhaps I was wrong to do this as it probably in the ended in the large gap I had my family in my life. I have most of them back in my life now and am very thankful for that on a daily basis.
As for friends that I have become estranged from , there are quite a few over the years. Some of which I have no regrets for being estranged from and some I miss everyday. All that this have happened with have had a reason. I have also been avoided by friends and avoided friends on many occasions fro reasons that are sometimes unknown to even myself at times. But most times I do have a reason and it is just uncomfortable to see certain people for a while. I know eventually that most people I become estranged from will be back in my life. Sometimes we all just need time apart! The one person I will never feel estranged from is my mother.
Anyways signing off for now. Have a great night from your gay neighbor.
Thursday Again
Well it has been a great week , although somewhat uneventful , it has been nice and calming. We went over to Matt's parents house yesterday and Matt finshed a good portion of the baseboards in the basement and I did some paint touch ups on the doors, and some tile repairs in the bathroom. Good times Good times.
Last Night I made a roast pork for dinner followed by our 11pm fantastic dessert that Matthew prepared. He made an apple and peach tart. Amazing although it fell apart, and looked like a disaster, so good. Did I mention we had to run to Superstore for Ice cream before we could eat the dessert. Good thing we have a car and the grocery store is open till 11pm.
Not quite as good as his souffle he made the night before though. God that was like dying and going to heaven. An amazing Vanilla richness that just melted in your mouth. Wow to be married to a chef, how lucky am I. Well technically we are not married but what the hell is a piece of paper?
Today was a productive day for both of us! Matt went to his parents and finished all the baseboard in the basement of their home. Yeah now all the baseboard is done. I stayed home and installed the new closet doors in the back bedroom and started to paint the back bedroom as well. The next project in there is to lay the laminate back there and then it will be a nice little sitting room and a great guest room for anyone to come and visit. Will let you know when it is all done and complete. can't wait.
Can't wait till tomorrow night BDGG is coming for dinner at our house. So I finally get to meet one of Matthews old friends from years ago and I am actually looking forward to meeting this one!
Last Night I made a roast pork for dinner followed by our 11pm fantastic dessert that Matthew prepared. He made an apple and peach tart. Amazing although it fell apart, and looked like a disaster, so good. Did I mention we had to run to Superstore for Ice cream before we could eat the dessert. Good thing we have a car and the grocery store is open till 11pm.
Not quite as good as his souffle he made the night before though. God that was like dying and going to heaven. An amazing Vanilla richness that just melted in your mouth. Wow to be married to a chef, how lucky am I. Well technically we are not married but what the hell is a piece of paper?
Today was a productive day for both of us! Matt went to his parents and finished all the baseboard in the basement of their home. Yeah now all the baseboard is done. I stayed home and installed the new closet doors in the back bedroom and started to paint the back bedroom as well. The next project in there is to lay the laminate back there and then it will be a nice little sitting room and a great guest room for anyone to come and visit. Will let you know when it is all done and complete. can't wait.
Can't wait till tomorrow night BDGG is coming for dinner at our house. So I finally get to meet one of Matthews old friends from years ago and I am actually looking forward to meeting this one!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Friends, True Friends and those who are just an Aquaintance
Good Evening From Your Gay Neighbor
We all have friends and aquaintances, and most of us are lucky enough to have a few true friends. My friends are few and most do not live in the city of Vancouver, My aquaintances are many and those who I socialize with and am nice to just because. I like them and enjoy seeing them , but we will never be that close. They are more of what I would call a bar buddy or those who you just say hi to on the street. My true friends are very few and all over the country, they are the people that are always there for you and have always been. The ones who you want to talk to and want to be around when ever possible. A true friend is one who you can call when you need someone to talk to and who calls you for the same reason. A person who always has your back and will defend you to the end. They give you a shoulder to cry on when you need it and someone to lean on when it is called for. In the end your true friends will be there no matter what.
In my life I have few true friends, my mother is probably my best friend and always will be, the one person I can tell anything to and she is always honest in with me in every way. Other friends who are like that and have been in my life for many years are my friend Sandi in Alberta, we went to school together and have known each other now since we were 11 years old. I love her dearly and respect her a great deal. Dwayne my ex is also a true friend whom I trust and will always be able to talk to and trust. He is good and always honest with me in every way, at least now that we are not together. Tom, my friend here in Vancouver and my only true friend here in the city, Tom has always been there for me , for the last 12 years, no matter where I lived and what was going on in my life. He is a fabulous man. The other 2 true friends that I consider are Nev from Edmonton and Di from Calgary. They are both lovely ladies and true to their hearts and their feelings and will always be in my life, or at least I hope so. All of these people are dear to me and I am glad that they came into my life and have remained there. I am lucky to have them and honored to be a part of their lives. And am so glad they are a part of mine. My new best friend is my partner and I am glad to consider Matthew in that category now.
Thank you all for being there and being with me even when I am difficult and hard to be around, that is how I know you are my true friends.
We all have friends and aquaintances, and most of us are lucky enough to have a few true friends. My friends are few and most do not live in the city of Vancouver, My aquaintances are many and those who I socialize with and am nice to just because. I like them and enjoy seeing them , but we will never be that close. They are more of what I would call a bar buddy or those who you just say hi to on the street. My true friends are very few and all over the country, they are the people that are always there for you and have always been. The ones who you want to talk to and want to be around when ever possible. A true friend is one who you can call when you need someone to talk to and who calls you for the same reason. A person who always has your back and will defend you to the end. They give you a shoulder to cry on when you need it and someone to lean on when it is called for. In the end your true friends will be there no matter what.
In my life I have few true friends, my mother is probably my best friend and always will be, the one person I can tell anything to and she is always honest in with me in every way. Other friends who are like that and have been in my life for many years are my friend Sandi in Alberta, we went to school together and have known each other now since we were 11 years old. I love her dearly and respect her a great deal. Dwayne my ex is also a true friend whom I trust and will always be able to talk to and trust. He is good and always honest with me in every way, at least now that we are not together. Tom, my friend here in Vancouver and my only true friend here in the city, Tom has always been there for me , for the last 12 years, no matter where I lived and what was going on in my life. He is a fabulous man. The other 2 true friends that I consider are Nev from Edmonton and Di from Calgary. They are both lovely ladies and true to their hearts and their feelings and will always be in my life, or at least I hope so. All of these people are dear to me and I am glad that they came into my life and have remained there. I am lucky to have them and honored to be a part of their lives. And am so glad they are a part of mine. My new best friend is my partner and I am glad to consider Matthew in that category now.
Thank you all for being there and being with me even when I am difficult and hard to be around, that is how I know you are my true friends.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Over the Blues
Good Afternoon from Your Gay Neighbor
Tuesday afternoon and life is slowly falling back into place for us here. We have decided to work on our troubles and make some compromises in our habits to help solidify our loving home and relationship once more. Matt and I have had our share of troubles as do all couples. We are slowly working things out and i know more everyday just how much he means to me and why I love him so much and want him in my life. He is as I have said before he is my lobster and my one. When you find your one you will do whatever you need to, to be with them and to stay happy, because really isn't that what life is about, Being happy. To me it sure is and I love the way he can make me laugh, and smile and the way he compliments me. He and I are so different, he is like my other half and that is why we work. We complete each other and make one a whole. When you find that one in your life you will learn to compromise and change your behaviors. Love isn't easy but if it is meant to be you are willing to work out the hard parts.
Anyhow today was an amazing day and I went shopping for a bit, got some groceries at dollar days at No Frills, my favorite grocery store in the city. A new one opening on Knight and 30th soon. I am so excited, then I won't have to drive all the way to Kits or Down town anymore. Thank God. Though I do love going to the one in Kitsalano so I can stop at my favorite Salvation Army Stores. Today I got to go there and got the most amazing deals. Let me tell you! I got a Diesel Leather and Denim Jacket, a gorgeous brand new pair of Gorgio Shoes and another Leather Jacket, and all for under 75 dollars.
The shoes I got, I saw at a store just before Christmas and really wanted them but they were over $300 and I just couldn't afford that, but today when I saw them , I knew it was meant to be.
I happen to love my clothes and love my designer clothes even more. I am not a label queen , but god do I love to look good when I go anywhere. Even when I am home on the farm visiting family or out walking the dogs. I just think it is proper and that is just me. Like or not it is a part of who I am.
Tuesday afternoon and life is slowly falling back into place for us here. We have decided to work on our troubles and make some compromises in our habits to help solidify our loving home and relationship once more. Matt and I have had our share of troubles as do all couples. We are slowly working things out and i know more everyday just how much he means to me and why I love him so much and want him in my life. He is as I have said before he is my lobster and my one. When you find your one you will do whatever you need to, to be with them and to stay happy, because really isn't that what life is about, Being happy. To me it sure is and I love the way he can make me laugh, and smile and the way he compliments me. He and I are so different, he is like my other half and that is why we work. We complete each other and make one a whole. When you find that one in your life you will learn to compromise and change your behaviors. Love isn't easy but if it is meant to be you are willing to work out the hard parts.
Anyhow today was an amazing day and I went shopping for a bit, got some groceries at dollar days at No Frills, my favorite grocery store in the city. A new one opening on Knight and 30th soon. I am so excited, then I won't have to drive all the way to Kits or Down town anymore. Thank God. Though I do love going to the one in Kitsalano so I can stop at my favorite Salvation Army Stores. Today I got to go there and got the most amazing deals. Let me tell you! I got a Diesel Leather and Denim Jacket, a gorgeous brand new pair of Gorgio Shoes and another Leather Jacket, and all for under 75 dollars.
The shoes I got, I saw at a store just before Christmas and really wanted them but they were over $300 and I just couldn't afford that, but today when I saw them , I knew it was meant to be.
I happen to love my clothes and love my designer clothes even more. I am not a label queen , but god do I love to look good when I go anywhere. Even when I am home on the farm visiting family or out walking the dogs. I just think it is proper and that is just me. Like or not it is a part of who I am.
Monday, January 24, 2011
Amazing Meals
Well I usually count on Matthew for an amazing meal in Vancouver because to be quite honest most of the restaurants that we have eaten at here in the city are not that good anymore! They either lack good food or good service, or in a lot of cases they have neither which is a real turn off for me.
Last night we went out to dinner, and I have to say for the first time since I have been back in the city of Vancouver I found a restaurant with great prices, amazing food, with both taste and quantity, and great service.
The name of the restaurant is Nick`s Spaghetti House on Commercial Drive and I would recomend this place to anyone and will definitely go back.
Our server was a middle age women and had to be closer to 50, but was kind , attentive and something of a rarity in the food service industry anymore! Just Spectacular. Loved her.
The decor was dark and old but fits. The restaurant has old Italian paintings, Red and White Check table cloths and paper napkins. No windows at all. But clean and very fitting.
The food was so good, It took a while to get the food, but so worth the wait. I had the Italian Sausage and Ravioli. Matt had the Homemade Fettucini with clams and whits sauce. We shared a homemade Teramisu for dessert and the whole bill for the 2 of us was under $50.
I tell you if you live here or are visiting, go and have a taste. You`ll love it!
Last night we went out to dinner, and I have to say for the first time since I have been back in the city of Vancouver I found a restaurant with great prices, amazing food, with both taste and quantity, and great service.
The name of the restaurant is Nick`s Spaghetti House on Commercial Drive and I would recomend this place to anyone and will definitely go back.
Our server was a middle age women and had to be closer to 50, but was kind , attentive and something of a rarity in the food service industry anymore! Just Spectacular. Loved her.
The decor was dark and old but fits. The restaurant has old Italian paintings, Red and White Check table cloths and paper napkins. No windows at all. But clean and very fitting.
The food was so good, It took a while to get the food, but so worth the wait. I had the Italian Sausage and Ravioli. Matt had the Homemade Fettucini with clams and whits sauce. We shared a homemade Teramisu for dessert and the whole bill for the 2 of us was under $50.
I tell you if you live here or are visiting, go and have a taste. You`ll love it!
Sunday, January 23, 2011
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Me and My Nature
Good Day From your Gay Neighbor
I am by nature a very giving and I think considerate person. I tend to always as my mother says put others first and perhaps this is a problem. Maybe I need to come first. I am also a very jealous person and I have become that way due to mistrust in every person I have ever been with. I love and wear my heart on my sleeve. All my feelings are always easily read and I hide nothing from anyone and can`t and actually won`t.
This are all a part of me and a part of who I am and who I accept, if you love me , you accept all these traits or flaws, whatever you want to call them as a part of me and take me as a whole. I am very blunt and almost too honest which may sometimes hurt people , but i think I say what needs to be said and have promised myself that I will do this for me.
I have my good and bad days and so does everyone else. When I have a bad day, you are probably best to just stay out of my way and leave me alone.
The reasons I am jealous are that I have always felt like I am second best to everyone in my life and because of partners cheating on me and making me feel that way. Perhaps I am the reason people cheat and perhaps they are the reason and I just don`t give them a good enough reason not too. I can`t answer that in full because I feel it is different in every relationship. Sometimes it may be my fault but at other times it is definitely not.
I am also a very misunderstood individual and always have been. Misunderstood because people do not always know how to take what I say and whether or not I am being serious or joking. Take the time to get to know me and you will figure that out.
If you are in my life and truly a great friend you will know all this about me already. There are not too many people who I actually think know me and truly get me and who and what I am. And also who I let in completely, you are a select few.
I am by nature a very giving and I think considerate person. I tend to always as my mother says put others first and perhaps this is a problem. Maybe I need to come first. I am also a very jealous person and I have become that way due to mistrust in every person I have ever been with. I love and wear my heart on my sleeve. All my feelings are always easily read and I hide nothing from anyone and can`t and actually won`t.
This are all a part of me and a part of who I am and who I accept, if you love me , you accept all these traits or flaws, whatever you want to call them as a part of me and take me as a whole. I am very blunt and almost too honest which may sometimes hurt people , but i think I say what needs to be said and have promised myself that I will do this for me.
I have my good and bad days and so does everyone else. When I have a bad day, you are probably best to just stay out of my way and leave me alone.
The reasons I am jealous are that I have always felt like I am second best to everyone in my life and because of partners cheating on me and making me feel that way. Perhaps I am the reason people cheat and perhaps they are the reason and I just don`t give them a good enough reason not too. I can`t answer that in full because I feel it is different in every relationship. Sometimes it may be my fault but at other times it is definitely not.
I am also a very misunderstood individual and always have been. Misunderstood because people do not always know how to take what I say and whether or not I am being serious or joking. Take the time to get to know me and you will figure that out.
If you are in my life and truly a great friend you will know all this about me already. There are not too many people who I actually think know me and truly get me and who and what I am. And also who I let in completely, you are a select few.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Adding to those who can Just KISS MY ASS
Well I bring you back to Michel, aka French fry #1 , aka Home wrecker. I really just can't stand this asshole and I am now sure he understands this. He is a useless piece of skin with a no back bone what so ever. Michel is the one gay man every attached gay man hates. He is the type who thinks he is pretty , but is steadily getting older, has never and will never be in a relationship of his own. Sleeps with other mens' partners and then takes no blame. He is a cold and malicious type of man who will eventually become 50, loose his looks, and be alone until his untimely death, well that is unless he messes with the wrong gay mans husband and ends up getting killed in a jealous rage.
Any how he tops the list of those who can kiss my ass and was actually happy for Matt to break up with me. I just want to make sure all who read this look out for people like this because they exist all over, men and women who are so vindictive and lonely they can not be happy until they make others unhappy. Heres to Michel , may you soon fuck with a very jealous and big mans husband and get what you deserve!!
To cap things off and to totally define Michel, he is #1 an ass, and #2 the type of gay man who is so envious of others lives that he will stop at nothing to destroy their happiness if he is allowed or take over their lives and live it for their own. To sum things up he is a Gay Man Body Snatcher.
Any how he tops the list of those who can kiss my ass and was actually happy for Matt to break up with me. I just want to make sure all who read this look out for people like this because they exist all over, men and women who are so vindictive and lonely they can not be happy until they make others unhappy. Heres to Michel , may you soon fuck with a very jealous and big mans husband and get what you deserve!!
To cap things off and to totally define Michel, he is #1 an ass, and #2 the type of gay man who is so envious of others lives that he will stop at nothing to destroy their happiness if he is allowed or take over their lives and live it for their own. To sum things up he is a Gay Man Body Snatcher.
To Finish Off Fridays Thought
Friday turned out to be a horrible day and Matt and I actually contemplated ending our relationship. We have are troubles and disagreements just like all couples though ours have always been around sex, sex websites and other men as I think you find in many gay relationships, unfortunately! As I have stated before being of a monogamous nature is not easy in the gay world and is very hard to find. I am hoping that we are now at that stage in our relationship and things will work out.
We did not break up , but had a full 24 hours of discussions and lets just say not all of them were great. We have decided to stay together and work things out and I am happy to say Matt is going to try and be monogamous and I am working on my trust issues and my passion not only for him but for everything in life , which I seem to have lost over the last 6 months.
Your gay neighbor almost left the neighborhood on Friday and I was seriously considering a move to Calgary and then eventually back to Toronto once the weather was better and I was back on my feet with a job and stuff.
So your gay neighbor will continue to write and I do apologize for not being here the last 2 days. I am true to my word when is say that I do believe Matthew is my lobster, my swan, my one. In believing this it makes him my life partner and hopefully my last one. I think if we had split up , I may have stayed single and become what I have hated for all my years. A lonely man who does nothing but have sex with strangers and nevers gets too attached to anyone,. I am not fond of that option.
We did not break up , but had a full 24 hours of discussions and lets just say not all of them were great. We have decided to stay together and work things out and I am happy to say Matt is going to try and be monogamous and I am working on my trust issues and my passion not only for him but for everything in life , which I seem to have lost over the last 6 months.
Your gay neighbor almost left the neighborhood on Friday and I was seriously considering a move to Calgary and then eventually back to Toronto once the weather was better and I was back on my feet with a job and stuff.
So your gay neighbor will continue to write and I do apologize for not being here the last 2 days. I am true to my word when is say that I do believe Matthew is my lobster, my swan, my one. In believing this it makes him my life partner and hopefully my last one. I think if we had split up , I may have stayed single and become what I have hated for all my years. A lonely man who does nothing but have sex with strangers and nevers gets too attached to anyone,. I am not fond of that option.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
The perfect One
The perfect one, is that ever true, I am doubtful but am happy that I have had my perfect one in my life. My perfect one has been matthew for the last well almost 2 years and I have had the pleasure to feel his love and to be with him. I always honestly believed that he was my lobster , my other half, my one true love. He is honestly the only person that I ever loved and ever truly felt love from.
I will always care for him and always worry for him and wonder if he was the one and only? I will explain this more in days to come. Unfortunately at the moment things are too hard to talk about and way to hard to explain.
I will always care for him and always worry for him and wonder if he was the one and only? I will explain this more in days to come. Unfortunately at the moment things are too hard to talk about and way to hard to explain.
My Bitchy Day
Good Evening from Your Gay Neighbor
Well my day started out like shit and I got the worst and probably most insulting email I have ever gotten. Some General Manager of a restaurant had an add out for a Service Manager and I thought I would apply, so I did. Any how this jack ass sent me an email back this morning, saying Dear Applicant I am afraid that you are not qualified for this position, but I can keep your resume' on file and call you in the future if I need a bus person or server. I kindly responded that he obviously hasn't read my resume and he was out of his mind and i am more than qualified to be a service manager and had he read my resume' , he would know this. I also wished him good luck as I do believe he is lacking many management skills needed to operate a restaurant. And I said thanks but no thanks and please loose my resume'.
Anyways then I went to a shit interview and that didn't go so well either. I am pretty sure I didn't get that job and under the impression if they wanted me after the second interview I would have been hired. Oh well. Then my day got so much worse, but I will fill you in on that tomorrow. Have a great night, I know I won't.
Well my day started out like shit and I got the worst and probably most insulting email I have ever gotten. Some General Manager of a restaurant had an add out for a Service Manager and I thought I would apply, so I did. Any how this jack ass sent me an email back this morning, saying Dear Applicant I am afraid that you are not qualified for this position, but I can keep your resume' on file and call you in the future if I need a bus person or server. I kindly responded that he obviously hasn't read my resume and he was out of his mind and i am more than qualified to be a service manager and had he read my resume' , he would know this. I also wished him good luck as I do believe he is lacking many management skills needed to operate a restaurant. And I said thanks but no thanks and please loose my resume'.
Anyways then I went to a shit interview and that didn't go so well either. I am pretty sure I didn't get that job and under the impression if they wanted me after the second interview I would have been hired. Oh well. Then my day got so much worse, but I will fill you in on that tomorrow. Have a great night, I know I won't.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
January 19th Already
Well it has been a very uneventful week thus far in the M and M home, which is alright, but anyone who knows me knows that I am a very restless person and am constantly on the move and need to be doing something. Matt on the other hand is my opposite in that and many other ways. I guess that is why we are so damn good together, we are two halves who make a whole.
Monday I went for my first interview at Whitespot and it would not be bad I guess, a chain restaurant that I could work at parttime and get back in the game to wait on tables. I do believe I am seriously done with the management aspect of restaurants. It is just way too much for me to do. I realize now that management is for those who are single or are married to someone who is also working a 50 to 60 hour week. Anyhow my second interview is tomorrow at 10am , and I can't believe you have to go for 2 interviews to become a waiter but oh well, Wish me luck PLEASE!!
Yesterday was a day of phone calls from abroad from friends who are distant from us here. My friend Nelly called from Toronto and then later another friend from Toronto, Rick gave us a call and then I got and email from my ex Dwayne. It was my Toronto day I guess. Also we got a call from Matts' friends in Chicago, always nice to hear from them. Makes me miss Toronto and everyone there, but would we be better off, I am not sure. I know we would money wise and I could walk anywhere I want(especially my favorite stores) depending on where we lived. But as I said before Vancouver is where I think Matt and I belong. Maybe once i am able to get a job here again I will feel better about it.
Monday I went for my first interview at Whitespot and it would not be bad I guess, a chain restaurant that I could work at parttime and get back in the game to wait on tables. I do believe I am seriously done with the management aspect of restaurants. It is just way too much for me to do. I realize now that management is for those who are single or are married to someone who is also working a 50 to 60 hour week. Anyhow my second interview is tomorrow at 10am , and I can't believe you have to go for 2 interviews to become a waiter but oh well, Wish me luck PLEASE!!
Yesterday was a day of phone calls from abroad from friends who are distant from us here. My friend Nelly called from Toronto and then later another friend from Toronto, Rick gave us a call and then I got and email from my ex Dwayne. It was my Toronto day I guess. Also we got a call from Matts' friends in Chicago, always nice to hear from them. Makes me miss Toronto and everyone there, but would we be better off, I am not sure. I know we would money wise and I could walk anywhere I want(especially my favorite stores) depending on where we lived. But as I said before Vancouver is where I think Matt and I belong. Maybe once i am able to get a job here again I will feel better about it.
Monday, January 17, 2011
Another Teenager Gone Because of Bullying
This is getting to be so sad, another teen has committed suicide due to bullying and because he was gay. It just breaks my heart to see this in the news. And it makes me wonder if society is getting better and more tolerable or is it as I fear getting worse. I always say now that it is like we are back in 1984 in some places. I just can't believe people can be so god damn mean and so ignorant. All because of a persons sexuality, color, race or religion. Are we as a society ever going to grow up? I am not sure. All I can say is I am glad for the support of the friends I had while growing up and throughout my life and to the bullies, Grow up and remember what goes around, comes around! Here is the story of the latest young man who has taken his own life due to peer pressure. I wish I could help just one young gay man and make them understand, it does get easier, but it is never easy. You just learn to live with who you are and love yourself and rely on those who you can rely on and know the will always be there for you. I know I have! Please read this story below and know this boy was only 18 years old.
MILTONA, Minn. - The news of a high school student's suicide began circling social networking sites Monday morning, after the news began spreading that 18-year-old Jefferson High School student Lance Lundsten had died over the weekend.
Around 10 p.m. Saturday the Douglas County Sheriff's Office responded to an emergency call at the Lundsten's residence in Miltona. When officers arrived, they discovered 18-year-old Lance Lundsten needing emergency medical care. Lundsten was transported to the Douglas County Hospital where he later died.
The Sheriff's Office confirmed to KSAX that they believed Lundsten's death was a suicide. The Sheriff would not confirm the nature of the medical emergency.
According to his Facebook page, Lundsten was openly gay. On a Facebook memorial page in Lundsten's honor, friends said that Lundsten had been bullied at school for his sexual orientation. Some students who knew Lundsten believed the bullying may have led to his suicide.
“Bullying is a huge issue, particularly with the youth in our country now,” Facilitator of the Diversity Resource Action Alliance Shari Maloney said. “I think because we’re in central Minnesota, and we aren’t as diverse as some of the larger Metropolitan areas are, someone who is different maybe draws more attention and it’s not always positive.”
Maloney said she works everyday to make Alexandria a more accepting place for community members and visitors. She said she has seen improvement, but there is still a long way to go.
“I think we are a welcoming community, but I think we are also a very traditional community as well,” Maloney said. “As the world changes, I’m not sure if we’re changing.”
Another Jefferson High School student started a Facebook group following Lundsten's death called the Jefferson Anti-Bully Coalition.
Senator Al Franken discusses legislation to protect students from being bullied in the classroom because of their sexual orientation.
Lundsten's funeral is set for Tuesday at 7:30 p.m. at Anderson Funeral Home in Alexandria.
MILTONA, Minn. - The news of a high school student's suicide began circling social networking sites Monday morning, after the news began spreading that 18-year-old Jefferson High School student Lance Lundsten had died over the weekend.
Around 10 p.m. Saturday the Douglas County Sheriff's Office responded to an emergency call at the Lundsten's residence in Miltona. When officers arrived, they discovered 18-year-old Lance Lundsten needing emergency medical care. Lundsten was transported to the Douglas County Hospital where he later died.
The Sheriff's Office confirmed to KSAX that they believed Lundsten's death was a suicide. The Sheriff would not confirm the nature of the medical emergency.
According to his Facebook page, Lundsten was openly gay. On a Facebook memorial page in Lundsten's honor, friends said that Lundsten had been bullied at school for his sexual orientation. Some students who knew Lundsten believed the bullying may have led to his suicide.
“Bullying is a huge issue, particularly with the youth in our country now,” Facilitator of the Diversity Resource Action Alliance Shari Maloney said. “I think because we’re in central Minnesota, and we aren’t as diverse as some of the larger Metropolitan areas are, someone who is different maybe draws more attention and it’s not always positive.”
Maloney said she works everyday to make Alexandria a more accepting place for community members and visitors. She said she has seen improvement, but there is still a long way to go.
“I think we are a welcoming community, but I think we are also a very traditional community as well,” Maloney said. “As the world changes, I’m not sure if we’re changing.”
Another Jefferson High School student started a Facebook group following Lundsten's death called the Jefferson Anti-Bully Coalition.
Senator Al Franken discusses legislation to protect students from being bullied in the classroom because of their sexual orientation.
Lundsten's funeral is set for Tuesday at 7:30 p.m. at Anderson Funeral Home in Alexandria.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Sundays
Well Sunday again and a good evening to all from your gay neighbor
Today was an amazing and quiet day. Matt and I had an amazing day out downtown. We went to one of my favorite old spots for brunch, let me tell you the service has changed a lot, but the food was still good. Service was actually rather slow and they were not as busy as they use to be. The restaurant is called Joes and I am still a huge fan because of the price and the food quality. I love my pattimelts.
After brunch we rearranged our bedroom and I just love it. Seems to be so much more room. Love it when Matt and i do stuff like that together. So romantic and fun.
I am going to put an add on Craigslist tomorrow and offer my decorating services to 3 different people for free painting and decorating of 3 rooms. We need to build a portfolio to get our business really off the ground and get things going. So I figure if We do all the labor and someone wants a free makeover of their room and is willing to buy the supplies. Then it will be great advertising. Wish us luck. We need our business to work and we are actually really great at it and work surprisingly well together.
Today was an amazing and quiet day. Matt and I had an amazing day out downtown. We went to one of my favorite old spots for brunch, let me tell you the service has changed a lot, but the food was still good. Service was actually rather slow and they were not as busy as they use to be. The restaurant is called Joes and I am still a huge fan because of the price and the food quality. I love my pattimelts.
After brunch we rearranged our bedroom and I just love it. Seems to be so much more room. Love it when Matt and i do stuff like that together. So romantic and fun.
I am going to put an add on Craigslist tomorrow and offer my decorating services to 3 different people for free painting and decorating of 3 rooms. We need to build a portfolio to get our business really off the ground and get things going. So I figure if We do all the labor and someone wants a free makeover of their room and is willing to buy the supplies. Then it will be great advertising. Wish us luck. We need our business to work and we are actually really great at it and work surprisingly well together.
Our Killer Cats
Good Evening all from Your Gay Neighbor
Well the last year and half with the cats has been fun. Especially the last 6 months. Sparky and Nadia have been on a rampage killing birds and small rodents in the neighborhood. Sounds horrible but I guess it is just the circle of life as they say.
But let me tall you about today, Matt and I had a nap and when we got up, we found a huge crow in the office. Over the last few months we have found a few small birds and a couple rodents brought into the house, but a crow, it was bigger than the cats. And for some reason Sparky and Nadia always have to bring in their victims to show us.
Speaking of their victims, last week I was fishing some of their toys from under the piano with a coat hanger, I was pulling out toys when all of a sudden I pulled out this dead bird. Poor thing must have gotten away and crawled under the piano. Not Pretty at all!
I really don't mind the killing of rodents and the crow didn't bother me too much either, but some of the small birds just kind of makes me sad.
Well we just have to accept what the cats do and live with it and eventually they will stop bringing them into the house, or at least we can hope.
Well the last year and half with the cats has been fun. Especially the last 6 months. Sparky and Nadia have been on a rampage killing birds and small rodents in the neighborhood. Sounds horrible but I guess it is just the circle of life as they say.
But let me tall you about today, Matt and I had a nap and when we got up, we found a huge crow in the office. Over the last few months we have found a few small birds and a couple rodents brought into the house, but a crow, it was bigger than the cats. And for some reason Sparky and Nadia always have to bring in their victims to show us.
Speaking of their victims, last week I was fishing some of their toys from under the piano with a coat hanger, I was pulling out toys when all of a sudden I pulled out this dead bird. Poor thing must have gotten away and crawled under the piano. Not Pretty at all!
I really don't mind the killing of rodents and the crow didn't bother me too much either, but some of the small birds just kind of makes me sad.
Well we just have to accept what the cats do and live with it and eventually they will stop bringing them into the house, or at least we can hope.
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Dreams or Nightmares
It is hard to believe and very weird but as of late I have been having the strangest dreams or shall I call them nightmares and they are so vivid, it is almost like they are real.
Wednesday night I had a really odd dream , I dreamed that Matt had left for an extremely younger man and kicked me and the girls out of the house and then he and his father made sure that I got nothing. It was so real, I woke up immediately and just looked over on the other side of the bed to make sure I was still with Matt and that he was there beside me.
Last nights dream was a bit more relaxed but equally as scary for me. I dreamed that I was offered and accepted an extremely good paying job, the scary part was it was in Calgary. So in the dream Matt and I moved there and bought a house and settled down in cow town. Now don't get me wrong I would love a great job again , but Calgary and I have never really seen eye to eye.
For me Calgary is still not open minded enough for some one like me to live there and to be who I am. Also I don't find Calgary to be big enough for me either. For that matter I find Edmonton worse. If I am going to move ever again it will have to be to a city as rich and as lovely and comparable to either Vancouver or Toronto.
Anyways back to my original point dreams or nightmares and what is the difference. I am not too sure myself and guess we all have our own interpretation of this. Mine is that every one is a dream some are just worse than others, which I guess would make them a nightmare.
Some say every dream has a meaning of different sorts, perhaps I should look it up and find out what these two dreams mean. Anyways I am hoping you are all having a great day. Talk to you soon. Hugs to all from your Gay Neighbor.
Wednesday night I had a really odd dream , I dreamed that Matt had left for an extremely younger man and kicked me and the girls out of the house and then he and his father made sure that I got nothing. It was so real, I woke up immediately and just looked over on the other side of the bed to make sure I was still with Matt and that he was there beside me.
Last nights dream was a bit more relaxed but equally as scary for me. I dreamed that I was offered and accepted an extremely good paying job, the scary part was it was in Calgary. So in the dream Matt and I moved there and bought a house and settled down in cow town. Now don't get me wrong I would love a great job again , but Calgary and I have never really seen eye to eye.
For me Calgary is still not open minded enough for some one like me to live there and to be who I am. Also I don't find Calgary to be big enough for me either. For that matter I find Edmonton worse. If I am going to move ever again it will have to be to a city as rich and as lovely and comparable to either Vancouver or Toronto.
Anyways back to my original point dreams or nightmares and what is the difference. I am not too sure myself and guess we all have our own interpretation of this. Mine is that every one is a dream some are just worse than others, which I guess would make them a nightmare.
Some say every dream has a meaning of different sorts, perhaps I should look it up and find out what these two dreams mean. Anyways I am hoping you are all having a great day. Talk to you soon. Hugs to all from your Gay Neighbor.
Friday, January 14, 2011
My Coming Out
Well when I came out publicly I was in my mid twenties and had already been in a few relationships which I had to carry on in Secret. I came out in 1997 and was almost 27 years old. I was in a relationship at that time with Henry and we had an apartment in Edmonton.
I will never forget the day I told my family, they actually dealt with it extremely well and that surprised me most of all. If you know anything, Alberta is a very conservative province! When I came out we (Henry and I) went out to my parents for dinner. My mother was amazing and so great with it, she just said that I was still her son and that she loved me no matter what. My eldest sister Sher was totally weirded out I think and just looked at me and said she was not ready to hear it, but I still had to say it. My father was just, well really no reaction, I just don't talk about it with him and it just never comes up. He has tended to have a great relationship with most of my partners and that is all I can ask for. My brothers were good but seem to become a bit distant. Their wives were just fabulous with me and I think it brought I closer together.
Now my sister Char, seemed to be good at first but later in life I found out she was the worst and most prejudicial about the whole gay thing. She actually left me a message in 2002 on my phone and said and I quote, I hope you get aids and die, you stupid little fag. Those words hurt a lot , coming from family.
I have no regrets coming out though, nor do I have any regrets on my lifestyle and the way it has turned out.
So please if you are gay, just be who you are! It is harder to live a false life and try to be straight, then to be just who you are.
I will never forget the day I told my family, they actually dealt with it extremely well and that surprised me most of all. If you know anything, Alberta is a very conservative province! When I came out we (Henry and I) went out to my parents for dinner. My mother was amazing and so great with it, she just said that I was still her son and that she loved me no matter what. My eldest sister Sher was totally weirded out I think and just looked at me and said she was not ready to hear it, but I still had to say it. My father was just, well really no reaction, I just don't talk about it with him and it just never comes up. He has tended to have a great relationship with most of my partners and that is all I can ask for. My brothers were good but seem to become a bit distant. Their wives were just fabulous with me and I think it brought I closer together.
Now my sister Char, seemed to be good at first but later in life I found out she was the worst and most prejudicial about the whole gay thing. She actually left me a message in 2002 on my phone and said and I quote, I hope you get aids and die, you stupid little fag. Those words hurt a lot , coming from family.
I have no regrets coming out though, nor do I have any regrets on my lifestyle and the way it has turned out.
So please if you are gay, just be who you are! It is harder to live a false life and try to be straight, then to be just who you are.
My Sister
During the 90's before I came out publicly as a gay man. I lived in a small house in Bowden Alberta and for a while raised my one nephew Dale, my sister Chars second child, her first Kory was raised entirely by my parents and he still lives with them.
I remember the time I had Dale living with me, still a baby, he was so cute and just learning to walk and talk. When I first had gotten Dale, it was because Char was on another one of her drrunken stupers. If I had known then what I know now, I would have fought to keep him and raise him for my own.
Having him in my house and with me were probably the greatest time in the mid 90's, I had a cute little sports car and had to trade that in for a 4 door sedan with easy access for a carseat. I had to childproof the house and move stuff up higher so he wouldn't get hurt.
Dale started to call me Maug after he had been with me for a while. He didn't know whether to call me Mike or Ma. It was so cute and so enduring to me to have him and see his little smile when I would get home from work and when he would get up in the morning.
So I guess I was a good parent for a short time. Dale, and his 2 younger siblings were taken away from Char in 2004 and given to foster care and I haven't seen them since. I am glad the kids were taken away from her but I wish that I would have been in a position to actually take them and give them a home with family. Some people should never have children, my sister was one of them. I guess in the end I am just happy the kids ended up in a good home and had some sort of normal upbringing, or at least I hope they did!
I remember the time I had Dale living with me, still a baby, he was so cute and just learning to walk and talk. When I first had gotten Dale, it was because Char was on another one of her drrunken stupers. If I had known then what I know now, I would have fought to keep him and raise him for my own.
Having him in my house and with me were probably the greatest time in the mid 90's, I had a cute little sports car and had to trade that in for a 4 door sedan with easy access for a carseat. I had to childproof the house and move stuff up higher so he wouldn't get hurt.
Dale started to call me Maug after he had been with me for a while. He didn't know whether to call me Mike or Ma. It was so cute and so enduring to me to have him and see his little smile when I would get home from work and when he would get up in the morning.
So I guess I was a good parent for a short time. Dale, and his 2 younger siblings were taken away from Char in 2004 and given to foster care and I haven't seen them since. I am glad the kids were taken away from her but I wish that I would have been in a position to actually take them and give them a home with family. Some people should never have children, my sister was one of them. I guess in the end I am just happy the kids ended up in a good home and had some sort of normal upbringing, or at least I hope they did!
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Thursday
Good Evening From Your Gay Neighbor
Writing later this evening than usual as we have had a rather busy day. Our day started very early this morning and we were up before 7am and enjoying some beautiful weather. By 9am we were on our way to North Vancouver to Matts' parents house to do some work for them. I finally finished tiling the basement and wow it looks amazing. Also the new carpet was installed on the staircase and upstairs hallway yesterday and the difference is so huge, I guess is the only way to put it. Matt finished all the baseboard in the upstairs today.
Tonight after an excellent meal made by my wonderful Matthew, we went downtown to and checked things out at the Bay and then went to Charlies Video Store and got 5 dvds for only 30 bucks, including our stupid HST.
We also got a new pot at the bay. We lost a few pots last year to burn casualties in the kitchen caused by some undo care and attention on our parts. Anyhow I am going to sign off for tonight and go and finish watching Phantom of the Opera with Matt, probably his favorite movie. Well that is besides all of his James Bond, I am not a Bond fan at all, especially the new one, he is just not a believable Bond.
Writing later this evening than usual as we have had a rather busy day. Our day started very early this morning and we were up before 7am and enjoying some beautiful weather. By 9am we were on our way to North Vancouver to Matts' parents house to do some work for them. I finally finished tiling the basement and wow it looks amazing. Also the new carpet was installed on the staircase and upstairs hallway yesterday and the difference is so huge, I guess is the only way to put it. Matt finished all the baseboard in the upstairs today.
Tonight after an excellent meal made by my wonderful Matthew, we went downtown to and checked things out at the Bay and then went to Charlies Video Store and got 5 dvds for only 30 bucks, including our stupid HST.
We also got a new pot at the bay. We lost a few pots last year to burn casualties in the kitchen caused by some undo care and attention on our parts. Anyhow I am going to sign off for tonight and go and finish watching Phantom of the Opera with Matt, probably his favorite movie. Well that is besides all of his James Bond, I am not a Bond fan at all, especially the new one, he is just not a believable Bond.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
My Girls
My Girls are probably one of the most important things in my life and in many ways I owe my life to Rogue. Let me explain this, when I got Rogue I just got out of the hospital in Toronto and had been very sick with pnuemia and also very depressed as because of this I have lost my job. My doctor at that time told me to get an animal and have something to look after and to get me out of the apartment.
Rogue is an amazing little girl, part Maltese/Jack Russell Mix, and cute as a button. Rogue was a friends dogs first born and her 2 sisters passed as her mommy wasn't feeding her. When I got Rogue she was just over 4 weeks old and I got my baby. She was so tiny, and we had a tough time getting her to eat and she loved to sleep on a heating pad. When we got her, I had started a new job and was taking her to work with me in my backpack. On Rogues' first birthday, my expartner Dwayne and I took Rogue shopping to get her birthday gift and let me tell you she found what she wanted. We were in the store and Rogue saw another dog, well let me put this nicely he gave Rogue her gift right then and there in the middle of the store. 60 days later we had 5 cute little puppies born on October 20, and thus comes the story of how we got Storm.
Storm was the third born and one of only 2 girls, They were all so cute when they were born , but my partner at the time Dwayne just totally fell in love with Storm from day one and she became ours. Storm is part Maltese, Jack Russel and Pom. Now I could not imagine the two of them apart, they are so cute together and love each other so much. The perfect picture of a mother and daughter relationship.
After Dwayne and I split up I ended up keeping the dogs and he would have them 2 days a week. I always felt guilty for taking them away from him. It was just over 2 years ago now that the girls and I made the long drive from Toronto back to Vancouver to live. Rogue and Storm made that drive totally survivable and a hell of a lot more fun. I love my girls.! Rogue is now 6 and has had 2 litters of beautiful puppies, Storm is 5 years old and a very spoiled little girl. Actually they are both what some consider and call spoiled and I just say they are loved.
I have to say my ex Dwayne ended up with a beautiful dog of his own, Jade was from Rogues' second litter and was much like Storm in many ways. One of only 2 girls out of five puppies and also the third born. Jade is a beautiful girl and was born in May of 2009. She is the exact same mix breed as Storm only jet black in color and a tiny little girl. She gave Dwayne back the happiness he was missing. I am so glad for that, he and Jade are so cute together and she needed a loving person, she got one!
Well those are my girls and the story of how I got them, I love my girls!
Rogue is an amazing little girl, part Maltese/Jack Russell Mix, and cute as a button. Rogue was a friends dogs first born and her 2 sisters passed as her mommy wasn't feeding her. When I got Rogue she was just over 4 weeks old and I got my baby. She was so tiny, and we had a tough time getting her to eat and she loved to sleep on a heating pad. When we got her, I had started a new job and was taking her to work with me in my backpack. On Rogues' first birthday, my expartner Dwayne and I took Rogue shopping to get her birthday gift and let me tell you she found what she wanted. We were in the store and Rogue saw another dog, well let me put this nicely he gave Rogue her gift right then and there in the middle of the store. 60 days later we had 5 cute little puppies born on October 20, and thus comes the story of how we got Storm.
Storm was the third born and one of only 2 girls, They were all so cute when they were born , but my partner at the time Dwayne just totally fell in love with Storm from day one and she became ours. Storm is part Maltese, Jack Russel and Pom. Now I could not imagine the two of them apart, they are so cute together and love each other so much. The perfect picture of a mother and daughter relationship.
After Dwayne and I split up I ended up keeping the dogs and he would have them 2 days a week. I always felt guilty for taking them away from him. It was just over 2 years ago now that the girls and I made the long drive from Toronto back to Vancouver to live. Rogue and Storm made that drive totally survivable and a hell of a lot more fun. I love my girls.! Rogue is now 6 and has had 2 litters of beautiful puppies, Storm is 5 years old and a very spoiled little girl. Actually they are both what some consider and call spoiled and I just say they are loved.
I have to say my ex Dwayne ended up with a beautiful dog of his own, Jade was from Rogues' second litter and was much like Storm in many ways. One of only 2 girls out of five puppies and also the third born. Jade is a beautiful girl and was born in May of 2009. She is the exact same mix breed as Storm only jet black in color and a tiny little girl. She gave Dwayne back the happiness he was missing. I am so glad for that, he and Jade are so cute together and she needed a loving person, she got one!
Well those are my girls and the story of how I got them, I love my girls!
Things I don't like part two
One of the second things that I totally don't like are people who cheat and those who they cheat with (home wreckers). I don't like it when people cheat because I figure if you are not satisfied with what you have then really just be single and go and get what you really think you need. Quit hurting others!
Part 2 of this is the people who they cheat with , what I tend to call the Home wrecker. These are men and women who will most likely be single their entire life and will never find anyone who truly loves them because they are far too busy sleeping with those who are already loved by someone else. I think this is part of their attraction, the safety factor that the cheater wants nothing else from you except sex.
It is of my opinion that people who cheat and those they cheat with are just looking for attention and not really sure of how to get it.
I have actually been cheated on, on several occasions and I have never dealt well with it nor have it ever made me feel good. I always felt as if it were my fault in some weird way and it also made me feel very unattractive and non sexual in every way.
Well let me tell you that when someone cheats it is not your fault and you are not unattractive, what they have done makes them the unattractive one and their is something wrong with them.
Just a note to all if you feel you have to cheat on your partner/wife/husband, or whatever the case may be, be up front about it, see why you are doing this and then if you still feel the need to sleep with someone else
maybe you aren't meant to be in a relationship. Some people should just stay single.
Part 2 of this is the people who they cheat with , what I tend to call the Home wrecker. These are men and women who will most likely be single their entire life and will never find anyone who truly loves them because they are far too busy sleeping with those who are already loved by someone else. I think this is part of their attraction, the safety factor that the cheater wants nothing else from you except sex.
It is of my opinion that people who cheat and those they cheat with are just looking for attention and not really sure of how to get it.
I have actually been cheated on, on several occasions and I have never dealt well with it nor have it ever made me feel good. I always felt as if it were my fault in some weird way and it also made me feel very unattractive and non sexual in every way.
Well let me tell you that when someone cheats it is not your fault and you are not unattractive, what they have done makes them the unattractive one and their is something wrong with them.
Just a note to all if you feel you have to cheat on your partner/wife/husband, or whatever the case may be, be up front about it, see why you are doing this and then if you still feel the need to sleep with someone else
maybe you aren't meant to be in a relationship. Some people should just stay single.
Wednesday and we have snow
Good Afternoon from your Gay Neighbor
Well for the first time in the new year we have snow in Vancouver and are in for the day. Matthew has been sick for the last couple days so I guess it is not all bad. The girls love the snow and are rolling in it as much as I can take them out, especially Storm, she loves it.
Not a really exciting day thus far, have spent a better part of the morning on the phone and talking to Mom and to a friend in Toronto about the job that was offered to me the other day. We are not going to Toronto at this time! Matthew and I discussed it and no matter how tempting this is to me and how much I miss Toronto at times. We have a lot going for us in Vancouver, we have friends, a nice home and each other which is the most important thing. And those are the things I would not change in my life for anything else. We also have Matt's Parents here which gives me the sense of family here as all my family is in Alberta and Matthews' parents have become my family too, amongst are own little family. Matt, Myself, Rogue, Storm , Sparky and Nadia. We are a cute and wonderful family and from my view a great addition to any neighborhood but especially here.
In other news Miko is finally out of our lives again, the lies just got to be way too much and then he also became a condasending idiot and just out and out rude. We have no time for that shit or the people who represent it, Good riddins.
Now back to our snow, i am not sure how much we got, but am hoping it melts away as fast as we got it, Please make it gone. I would say we probably got 6 to 8 inches.
Well for the first time in the new year we have snow in Vancouver and are in for the day. Matthew has been sick for the last couple days so I guess it is not all bad. The girls love the snow and are rolling in it as much as I can take them out, especially Storm, she loves it.
Not a really exciting day thus far, have spent a better part of the morning on the phone and talking to Mom and to a friend in Toronto about the job that was offered to me the other day. We are not going to Toronto at this time! Matthew and I discussed it and no matter how tempting this is to me and how much I miss Toronto at times. We have a lot going for us in Vancouver, we have friends, a nice home and each other which is the most important thing. And those are the things I would not change in my life for anything else. We also have Matt's Parents here which gives me the sense of family here as all my family is in Alberta and Matthews' parents have become my family too, amongst are own little family. Matt, Myself, Rogue, Storm , Sparky and Nadia. We are a cute and wonderful family and from my view a great addition to any neighborhood but especially here.
In other news Miko is finally out of our lives again, the lies just got to be way too much and then he also became a condasending idiot and just out and out rude. We have no time for that shit or the people who represent it, Good riddins.
Now back to our snow, i am not sure how much we got, but am hoping it melts away as fast as we got it, Please make it gone. I would say we probably got 6 to 8 inches.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Things I don't like
Good Morning from your gay neighbor
The whole idea of this blog is to let people get to know me better so over the next few day I will tell you all things I don't like and why and give you some examples of these.
I really detest people who out and out lie and then can not remember all of their lies and they just keep getting bigger. I have a sister who is constantly lying and can no longer keep track of her own life and now she even believes her lies and keeps them going. First and foremost we don't even talk anymore so anything I say about her, well if anyone knows her they will know what I say is true. Char is a drunk and just a out and out liar. She has strung such a life of lies it is almost as though she lives in a fantasy world all of her own. I will get back to Char at a later time. For now I want to go to a bigger liar who is in Matt and my lives at the present time and who use to be in Matthews life before I entered it.
His name is Miko nuts and this boy is one for the books. He has told us in the last 6 months that he has opened a flower shop, then sold the flower shop and now he has hired someone to run the flower shop, just one example. But as of last week we get bigger and deeper. Miko has come back to Vancouver from his move to Toronto and was only suppose to be here on a vacation with a stop in Northeast Alberta. So here is where the story goes to shit. He got here at the end of December and has been feeding us his lies through email since. He said he was coming here with his partner from Toronto and I should add it was only 2 months ago that they had broken up and Miko left him, all of a sudden that never happened. Now I guess they are here and His partner has walked into the hotel room and caught Miko in bed with someone else, and there the drama and lies start to unfold. His partner gets upset, rightfully so and leaves and goes back to Toronto. Now the rest of the story, Miko tells us the other day that he is staying here and as of last Friday was in a hotel in North Vancouver and staying there for the weekend and will be staying in Vancouver, fine. But, he all of a sudden has a condo in Vancouver which he is now renting out and then he is letting his ex stay there the next minute. Crazy I know and he is emailing all this and can't keep in straight. If you are going to lie that much at least check your other sent emails.
Now today Matt gets an email saying that Miko has bought land in Alberta and also he has moved into a house here in Vancouver as of last Friday and ordered all new furniture, pretty good for a man who has no job! So if you have followed along you will catch some of the lies.
I really hate lies and especially liars, just remember if you are going to lie, eventually you will get caught and if you are going to keep on making up stories, try to keep them straight so they are at least somewhat believable, PLEASE! Although I do understand that sometimes we all may stretch the truth and really is that different? In my opinion yes it is because it is still somewhat true with a little extra, but I guess what I am saying is an out and out lie drives me crazy.
The whole idea of this blog is to let people get to know me better so over the next few day I will tell you all things I don't like and why and give you some examples of these.
I really detest people who out and out lie and then can not remember all of their lies and they just keep getting bigger. I have a sister who is constantly lying and can no longer keep track of her own life and now she even believes her lies and keeps them going. First and foremost we don't even talk anymore so anything I say about her, well if anyone knows her they will know what I say is true. Char is a drunk and just a out and out liar. She has strung such a life of lies it is almost as though she lives in a fantasy world all of her own. I will get back to Char at a later time. For now I want to go to a bigger liar who is in Matt and my lives at the present time and who use to be in Matthews life before I entered it.
His name is Miko nuts and this boy is one for the books. He has told us in the last 6 months that he has opened a flower shop, then sold the flower shop and now he has hired someone to run the flower shop, just one example. But as of last week we get bigger and deeper. Miko has come back to Vancouver from his move to Toronto and was only suppose to be here on a vacation with a stop in Northeast Alberta. So here is where the story goes to shit. He got here at the end of December and has been feeding us his lies through email since. He said he was coming here with his partner from Toronto and I should add it was only 2 months ago that they had broken up and Miko left him, all of a sudden that never happened. Now I guess they are here and His partner has walked into the hotel room and caught Miko in bed with someone else, and there the drama and lies start to unfold. His partner gets upset, rightfully so and leaves and goes back to Toronto. Now the rest of the story, Miko tells us the other day that he is staying here and as of last Friday was in a hotel in North Vancouver and staying there for the weekend and will be staying in Vancouver, fine. But, he all of a sudden has a condo in Vancouver which he is now renting out and then he is letting his ex stay there the next minute. Crazy I know and he is emailing all this and can't keep in straight. If you are going to lie that much at least check your other sent emails.
Now today Matt gets an email saying that Miko has bought land in Alberta and also he has moved into a house here in Vancouver as of last Friday and ordered all new furniture, pretty good for a man who has no job! So if you have followed along you will catch some of the lies.
I really hate lies and especially liars, just remember if you are going to lie, eventually you will get caught and if you are going to keep on making up stories, try to keep them straight so they are at least somewhat believable, PLEASE! Although I do understand that sometimes we all may stretch the truth and really is that different? In my opinion yes it is because it is still somewhat true with a little extra, but I guess what I am saying is an out and out lie drives me crazy.
Monday, January 10, 2011
January 10, 2011
Monday Mondays
Good Evening from Your Gay Neighbor
Today was a fairly uneventful day, Matthew and I went to his parents and did some work for them in preperation for their new carpeting for the stairs and hallway, which will arrive on Thursday. I closed in the stairs, which use to be hollywood stairs and now are no more. We also finished the upstairs baseboard. The house is really coming together and looking quite lovely. They are still debating selling the house and I am hoping they really don't and stay in the house where they are comfortable and happy and use to being in their neighborhood.
We are thinking of going to the casino tonight and having some fun. I hope we win lots of money. We are going to phone Bo and Hope and see if they want to go with us, love to have them tag along for the company.
Matthew just got off the phone with Martin and he is suppose to making us drapes and chair covers for our bar stools, when I say suppose to be I mean we asked him 6 months ago to do this and still haven't seen anything. He keeps coming up with excuse after excuse as to why things are not done and not here as of yet. I call bullshit.
Also news update about our straight neighbors Isabella and John are expecting a new baby bambino in March. I am actually happy about this child coming into the neighborhood. The children right next door to us are so obnoxious and loud and winy. I can't stand them.
I use to love and want children so badly and the truth be know if I was younger, I would definitely want one or 2. It is one gay regret and I totally envy my brothers and sisters and many of my friends for being able to have children and their family. I wish I had one or two little Michaels run around this crazy city.
If my brothers and sisters only knew how lucky they are to have those kids. I think I would have been a great parent once upon a time. Now I think I am too old to give a child a proper home and am also probably a little too set in my ways and also maybe a little selfish.
Well off to the Casino, talk to you all in in a bit and oh yeah have a great night from your gay neighbor.
Good Evening from Your Gay Neighbor
Today was a fairly uneventful day, Matthew and I went to his parents and did some work for them in preperation for their new carpeting for the stairs and hallway, which will arrive on Thursday. I closed in the stairs, which use to be hollywood stairs and now are no more. We also finished the upstairs baseboard. The house is really coming together and looking quite lovely. They are still debating selling the house and I am hoping they really don't and stay in the house where they are comfortable and happy and use to being in their neighborhood.
We are thinking of going to the casino tonight and having some fun. I hope we win lots of money. We are going to phone Bo and Hope and see if they want to go with us, love to have them tag along for the company.
Matthew just got off the phone with Martin and he is suppose to making us drapes and chair covers for our bar stools, when I say suppose to be I mean we asked him 6 months ago to do this and still haven't seen anything. He keeps coming up with excuse after excuse as to why things are not done and not here as of yet. I call bullshit.
Also news update about our straight neighbors Isabella and John are expecting a new baby bambino in March. I am actually happy about this child coming into the neighborhood. The children right next door to us are so obnoxious and loud and winy. I can't stand them.
I use to love and want children so badly and the truth be know if I was younger, I would definitely want one or 2. It is one gay regret and I totally envy my brothers and sisters and many of my friends for being able to have children and their family. I wish I had one or two little Michaels run around this crazy city.
If my brothers and sisters only knew how lucky they are to have those kids. I think I would have been a great parent once upon a time. Now I think I am too old to give a child a proper home and am also probably a little too set in my ways and also maybe a little selfish.
Well off to the Casino, talk to you all in in a bit and oh yeah have a great night from your gay neighbor.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Sunday Again
Good Morning from Your Gay Neighbor
Well it is Sunday again and we are sitting on the couch and watching movies. It is also our laundry day and day to tidy up the house. We also usually go out to Pumpjack in the afternoon and meet our friends for our once a week outing. Mom just called and we talked for a bit, She has been doing very well as of late, but is still having some health issues.
Last night we had the neighbors over for a drink or and visited for a bit, it is the first time that we have seen Bo and Hope for a week. Was nice to visit and catch up for a bit, very relaxing with them and we have become so comfortable now that we can just sit around and talk about anything.
Well I have gotten 4 texts from Toronto thus far today asking me to come back work, tempting as that is. I think about what I have here and being with Matthew and would not change that for the world. Because really when you think about what is money and a job if you don't have the person you love to spend it with and on? I use to love my job there and miss it a lot of the time but am not sure Matthew would be happy in Toronto and believe me we have discussed the move on more than one occasion. I also miss my friends in Toronto a great deal and would love to see them more. Sometimes Vancouver just feels lonely and like it is just the 2 of us.
You never know though. Right now is not the time to move. Matthew's parents are older and my mother is not totally in the clear yet, well she is but you just never know. We have to wait till March for her next appointment. I know that she will be cancer free and totally in remission though.
Well it is Sunday again and we are sitting on the couch and watching movies. It is also our laundry day and day to tidy up the house. We also usually go out to Pumpjack in the afternoon and meet our friends for our once a week outing. Mom just called and we talked for a bit, She has been doing very well as of late, but is still having some health issues.
Last night we had the neighbors over for a drink or and visited for a bit, it is the first time that we have seen Bo and Hope for a week. Was nice to visit and catch up for a bit, very relaxing with them and we have become so comfortable now that we can just sit around and talk about anything.
Well I have gotten 4 texts from Toronto thus far today asking me to come back work, tempting as that is. I think about what I have here and being with Matthew and would not change that for the world. Because really when you think about what is money and a job if you don't have the person you love to spend it with and on? I use to love my job there and miss it a lot of the time but am not sure Matthew would be happy in Toronto and believe me we have discussed the move on more than one occasion. I also miss my friends in Toronto a great deal and would love to see them more. Sometimes Vancouver just feels lonely and like it is just the 2 of us.
You never know though. Right now is not the time to move. Matthew's parents are older and my mother is not totally in the clear yet, well she is but you just never know. We have to wait till March for her next appointment. I know that she will be cancer free and totally in remission though.
Saturday, January 8, 2011
The Different Types of Gay Men
Good Afternoon from Your Gay Neighbor
Well this afternoon I am going to explain my definitions and the different types of gay men that I have come across and that I know of. The reason I am doing this is mainly because of one of Matthew's friends in Toronto, who I call fartin Martin this summer said I was a typical Church Street fag. For those of you who don't know Toronto, Church Street is the gay street there. I guess at first I thought this was an insult, but then I realized this is a compliment because it meant I was very involved in the gay community and was a label boy and always out at the bars and stuff. So here goes I will tell you my definitions and where Matt and I fit in there.
1) Screamer/Flamer- a very loud and out there gay man who is gay all the time and in every way, bleach blonde hair, pink clothing and very tight clothes, limp wristed and very feminine.
2) Queen- wheres labels, feminine and looks after them selves in every way, always the best dressed in the room. Soft spoken but loud when they want to be, often our dragqueens and performers.
3)Bear- A large hairy man, usually a bit over weight and quite hairy, blue jeans and T shirt type.
4)Cub- A younger and bit smaller that a bear, usually the date of the bear.
5) Muscle Mary- Totally focused on his body and what he looks like, when you see him you think a very masculine man and strong, boy are you wrong, usually most feminine and one huge gay.
6)Leather Pig- the guy who wears leather at all times and love to be in boots and chaps and possibly a harness. They are somewhat wild in my experience and like to where to bed exactly what they where out. Don't be fooled by the outfit though, not always as masculine as they look.
7)Straight Gay- these are the men you see and you would never know they are gay.
8)Rice Queens- the gay man that chases after asians only.
9)Daddies- The older gay man that dates men who are at least half his age. These men usually end up support their younger lover in every way.
10)Pretty Boys- those who rely entirely on their looks to get by in life(good looks only last so long, we all mange to age at some point).
So I guess by my definitions I am queen when seen on the street and out and Matthew would be a Straight Gay. We are totally opposite and this is why we work so well together. We balance each other out.
Well this afternoon I am going to explain my definitions and the different types of gay men that I have come across and that I know of. The reason I am doing this is mainly because of one of Matthew's friends in Toronto, who I call fartin Martin this summer said I was a typical Church Street fag. For those of you who don't know Toronto, Church Street is the gay street there. I guess at first I thought this was an insult, but then I realized this is a compliment because it meant I was very involved in the gay community and was a label boy and always out at the bars and stuff. So here goes I will tell you my definitions and where Matt and I fit in there.
1) Screamer/Flamer- a very loud and out there gay man who is gay all the time and in every way, bleach blonde hair, pink clothing and very tight clothes, limp wristed and very feminine.
2) Queen- wheres labels, feminine and looks after them selves in every way, always the best dressed in the room. Soft spoken but loud when they want to be, often our dragqueens and performers.
3)Bear- A large hairy man, usually a bit over weight and quite hairy, blue jeans and T shirt type.
4)Cub- A younger and bit smaller that a bear, usually the date of the bear.
5) Muscle Mary- Totally focused on his body and what he looks like, when you see him you think a very masculine man and strong, boy are you wrong, usually most feminine and one huge gay.
6)Leather Pig- the guy who wears leather at all times and love to be in boots and chaps and possibly a harness. They are somewhat wild in my experience and like to where to bed exactly what they where out. Don't be fooled by the outfit though, not always as masculine as they look.
7)Straight Gay- these are the men you see and you would never know they are gay.
8)Rice Queens- the gay man that chases after asians only.
9)Daddies- The older gay man that dates men who are at least half his age. These men usually end up support their younger lover in every way.
10)Pretty Boys- those who rely entirely on their looks to get by in life(good looks only last so long, we all mange to age at some point).
So I guess by my definitions I am queen when seen on the street and out and Matthew would be a Straight Gay. We are totally opposite and this is why we work so well together. We balance each other out.
Friday, January 7, 2011
A Week into the New Year
Well we have now been a a week into 2011 and so far nothing exciting has happened. Matthew and I are hoping are business will take off in the next few weeks and then I won't have to go back to Restaurant Management and work with those little idiots again. I am also a bit afraid of going back and working in Restaurants again. I know I can do the job , but can I do it for the money I will make in this city, I am not sure and do i really want to?
I miss my jobs that I had in Toronto and the money I use to make , but I would not change my life now for that either. I have realized that having love and by love I mean being with Matthew, it really doesn't matter if I am broke. I always manage to get by and we do quite well together.
Though I must say I do miss other things about Toronto, my friends, the area I lived in, the shopping, just to name a few. Life always seems better where you were but in reality life is what we make it, and I am happy with mine most days.
Matthew is sick now and I feel I may be finally getting over my cold. I guess we just keep passing it back and forth to each other, I know so not sexy, but what the hell, if you are gonna be sick, it might as well be fun to get sick.
The reason I miss my neighborhood in Toronto is I was right in the heart of the gayborhood and could walk to the bar, go shopping or visit with my gay neighbor. Here where we live is a beautiful and quiet family neighborhood but if we want to go out , it is a train ride and a walk away or a $20 taxi ride which is just outrageous. Anyways I will see you later, have a great night from your gay neighbor.
I miss my jobs that I had in Toronto and the money I use to make , but I would not change my life now for that either. I have realized that having love and by love I mean being with Matthew, it really doesn't matter if I am broke. I always manage to get by and we do quite well together.
Though I must say I do miss other things about Toronto, my friends, the area I lived in, the shopping, just to name a few. Life always seems better where you were but in reality life is what we make it, and I am happy with mine most days.
Matthew is sick now and I feel I may be finally getting over my cold. I guess we just keep passing it back and forth to each other, I know so not sexy, but what the hell, if you are gonna be sick, it might as well be fun to get sick.
The reason I miss my neighborhood in Toronto is I was right in the heart of the gayborhood and could walk to the bar, go shopping or visit with my gay neighbor. Here where we live is a beautiful and quiet family neighborhood but if we want to go out , it is a train ride and a walk away or a $20 taxi ride which is just outrageous. Anyways I will see you later, have a great night from your gay neighbor.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
January 6th
Good Afternoon from your gay Neighbor
Well I am still a little under the weather but have promised myself to write my blog daily so here I go. This week the first in January has been very quiet and non exciting so far. I was hoping the New Year would start off with a bang, instead it feels more like a thud.
Yesterday Matt went to his parents and helped his father with some computer issues and went to do some banking and that with his father. I stayed home in bed with my cold. Yesterday was not a good day at all for me or my cold and my body is just not fighting this thing at all and am just hoping I do not end up with pneumonia or anything like that. When I get a cold it just sits in my lungs as I have had C.O.P.D. now for just over 4 years.
Today I actually manged to leave the house, the first time all week and I went and ordered carpet for Matt's parents house and then my job there will be done and the house will be entirely redecorated and then we will have to stage it appropriately if his parents decide to sell.
I think his parents should stay in their house and enjoy life where they know it and are happy. The original plan when we redid the house I do believe was to sell and update for this purpose. I think though that when Matts Mom got back she was shocked and happy with the changes and now wants to enjoy them. By the way his parents are well into their 80's and still drive and play badminton and do everything on their own. Pretty good , ay!
Matt was suppose to go swimming this morning with Bo, but canceled due to his siatic nerve in his leg. This has been a continuous problem with him now for over a month and he is suppose to go and get ex rays but he has not yet. He has been totally caring for me the last week and before that with my kidney stones, he is so sweet.
Miko, Matts friend also emailed him yesterday and asked to come and look at the house, translation, I need a place to stay and will not tell you until I show up at your door with my bags. Not sure we are up for anymore house guests for any length of time after Jurgen and quite frankly as I said previously I am not a big fan of Miko.
Well that is it for me for now. Later if I am feeling better and not so drugged up on Neo Citron and Benelyn I will write more. Have a great night.
Well I am still a little under the weather but have promised myself to write my blog daily so here I go. This week the first in January has been very quiet and non exciting so far. I was hoping the New Year would start off with a bang, instead it feels more like a thud.
Yesterday Matt went to his parents and helped his father with some computer issues and went to do some banking and that with his father. I stayed home in bed with my cold. Yesterday was not a good day at all for me or my cold and my body is just not fighting this thing at all and am just hoping I do not end up with pneumonia or anything like that. When I get a cold it just sits in my lungs as I have had C.O.P.D. now for just over 4 years.
Today I actually manged to leave the house, the first time all week and I went and ordered carpet for Matt's parents house and then my job there will be done and the house will be entirely redecorated and then we will have to stage it appropriately if his parents decide to sell.
I think his parents should stay in their house and enjoy life where they know it and are happy. The original plan when we redid the house I do believe was to sell and update for this purpose. I think though that when Matts Mom got back she was shocked and happy with the changes and now wants to enjoy them. By the way his parents are well into their 80's and still drive and play badminton and do everything on their own. Pretty good , ay!
Matt was suppose to go swimming this morning with Bo, but canceled due to his siatic nerve in his leg. This has been a continuous problem with him now for over a month and he is suppose to go and get ex rays but he has not yet. He has been totally caring for me the last week and before that with my kidney stones, he is so sweet.
Miko, Matts friend also emailed him yesterday and asked to come and look at the house, translation, I need a place to stay and will not tell you until I show up at your door with my bags. Not sure we are up for anymore house guests for any length of time after Jurgen and quite frankly as I said previously I am not a big fan of Miko.
Well that is it for me for now. Later if I am feeling better and not so drugged up on Neo Citron and Benelyn I will write more. Have a great night.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Sick again
Hello from your gay Neighbor
I am still sick so I am actually not posting to much today. Will fill you in on yesterday and todays events later if I feel better. Anyways thanks to you all for reading and I will see you on January 6th.
I am still sick so I am actually not posting to much today. Will fill you in on yesterday and todays events later if I feel better. Anyways thanks to you all for reading and I will see you on January 6th.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Matthew and I
Good Day from Your Gay Neighbor
Matthew and I are now getting stronger in our relationship. we have had our fair share of struggles and trials and tribulations, and a lot of these have been caused by people from both of our pasts. Let me introduce you to a few of these people.
Charles and Daniel, a gay couple, who Matthew knew before I met him and they had a building friendship and a sexual relationship of a different sort. Charles always thought that Matt would be free to play as his wing man and he also assumed that I would want to sleep with him, wrong on both accounts. This put quite the strain on us for the first few months of our lives together and we tried to just have a friendship with them as another gay couple, that never worked.
Charles and Daniel are very rude to me and I shall add them to the list of people who can just kiss my ass. Daniel tried to cause problems by bitching about me in emails to Matt and Charles why he was just a snake and wanted me out of the picture. There were many times when Charles would invite Matt to sex parties and stuff like that and I think for the most part he did that just to annoy me. And Daniel even went so far as to invite Matthew over to have sex with him on several occasions. Matthew never went.
Others who I have met from Matthews past who i really have no use for are Steve, Gabe, Julian, oh and that Michel. You can add them to the list of people I have no use for. Though I have tried to be at least friendly and Matt and I have tried to develop a friendship with all of them. They can't seem to get past a sexual relationship and I guess they all have enough friends.
People from my past past who Matthew have met are Brian, and Alex. We use to be good friends but after I started dating Matt they just fell away and dropped out of my life. Also there is Eric and he just got strange after I started dating Matt, maybe jealous I am not sure. Oh Eric and I use to date. Also Joe and Shaun, Joe was my best friend for well over 15 years and I thought that would never change. We are still friends but not near what it use to be. This was caused by him wanting Matt but not until after Matt and I started dating. There is something out there with gay men and I am not sure what it is but it seems a man becomes more desirable after he is in a loving relationship. Weird I know. I guess when you are single they look at you as undesirable but as soon as you are dating people hit on you more and everything. I think in part people want what they see you have and on the other hand people just want their single friend back. I am not sure and won't pretend to understand this part.
Matthew and I are now getting stronger in our relationship. we have had our fair share of struggles and trials and tribulations, and a lot of these have been caused by people from both of our pasts. Let me introduce you to a few of these people.
Charles and Daniel, a gay couple, who Matthew knew before I met him and they had a building friendship and a sexual relationship of a different sort. Charles always thought that Matt would be free to play as his wing man and he also assumed that I would want to sleep with him, wrong on both accounts. This put quite the strain on us for the first few months of our lives together and we tried to just have a friendship with them as another gay couple, that never worked.
Charles and Daniel are very rude to me and I shall add them to the list of people who can just kiss my ass. Daniel tried to cause problems by bitching about me in emails to Matt and Charles why he was just a snake and wanted me out of the picture. There were many times when Charles would invite Matt to sex parties and stuff like that and I think for the most part he did that just to annoy me. And Daniel even went so far as to invite Matthew over to have sex with him on several occasions. Matthew never went.
Others who I have met from Matthews past who i really have no use for are Steve, Gabe, Julian, oh and that Michel. You can add them to the list of people I have no use for. Though I have tried to be at least friendly and Matt and I have tried to develop a friendship with all of them. They can't seem to get past a sexual relationship and I guess they all have enough friends.
People from my past past who Matthew have met are Brian, and Alex. We use to be good friends but after I started dating Matt they just fell away and dropped out of my life. Also there is Eric and he just got strange after I started dating Matt, maybe jealous I am not sure. Oh Eric and I use to date. Also Joe and Shaun, Joe was my best friend for well over 15 years and I thought that would never change. We are still friends but not near what it use to be. This was caused by him wanting Matt but not until after Matt and I started dating. There is something out there with gay men and I am not sure what it is but it seems a man becomes more desirable after he is in a loving relationship. Weird I know. I guess when you are single they look at you as undesirable but as soon as you are dating people hit on you more and everything. I think in part people want what they see you have and on the other hand people just want their single friend back. I am not sure and won't pretend to understand this part.
Being Gay Is Not a Choice
Being gay has never been easy but it is my life and I deal with it everyday and wouldn't change it for the world. You do not choose this lifestyle and it is like every other minority in the world with perhaps a bit more hatred pointed towards it.
During my life I have been picked on, yelled slurs at, ignored and temporarily disowned by family and friends, gay bashed, turned down for certain jobs, shunned, domestic abuse. rape and many other things. But I am still here and stronger for everything that has been thrown my way. I will elaborate more on all these events so you may get to know me better as the year goes by. Just so you know you have to take all this and move on and grow stronger from who you are and accept those who are less tolerant of your lifestyle. Just stand up and be heard and be yourself. Some may call me a very black and white person, others may refer to me as a bitch. I refer to myself as a very proud and strong gay male. I am very opinionated and set in my ways.
Those who love me truly love me and those who don't well I guess that is their loss, or so I am now realizing. It use to be important to me to be liked, now it is more important to me to be me and to be honest even when that honesty hurts. I can be brutally honest and I guess that is where people get the idea that I may be a bitch, oh well.
During my life I have been picked on, yelled slurs at, ignored and temporarily disowned by family and friends, gay bashed, turned down for certain jobs, shunned, domestic abuse. rape and many other things. But I am still here and stronger for everything that has been thrown my way. I will elaborate more on all these events so you may get to know me better as the year goes by. Just so you know you have to take all this and move on and grow stronger from who you are and accept those who are less tolerant of your lifestyle. Just stand up and be heard and be yourself. Some may call me a very black and white person, others may refer to me as a bitch. I refer to myself as a very proud and strong gay male. I am very opinionated and set in my ways.
Those who love me truly love me and those who don't well I guess that is their loss, or so I am now realizing. It use to be important to me to be liked, now it is more important to me to be me and to be honest even when that honesty hurts. I can be brutally honest and I guess that is where people get the idea that I may be a bitch, oh well.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Good Morning- January 3, 2011
Good Morning from your Gay Neighbor
I am still a bit sick with my cold today, and am out of bed and done my routine so far for today. Well a little about my morning routine. I get up in the morning, get half dressed(Pajama bottoms and t-shirt) , grab a coffee and cigarette and take the girls to the park so they can have their morning pee. The cats tend to follow us for our morning walk.
Yesterday Matthew and I went to Pumpjack, had a few drinks and visited with friends. Matt has a few more people that say hi to him than I do. There is Stewie and Lane, not alot of use for them but they do like Matt so I am tolerant. There is also Toliver and his partner and I really just can't stand them and they me. They can't and never have even tried to be nice.Not that I need them to be because I think I am done with people like them and all they really want is sex anyhow and not with me but with Matt. Useless to me in every way and what I just despise in gay men is men like them. Met quite a few of them in the last couple years.
We did get to visit with my friend Tom and his new friend Don who he has just started dating in the last 2 weeks. He seems like a nice fellow. Had a good time but was so tired from this cold.
Also got to say goodbye to Nakib, who leaves for Edmonton on thursday to start his new life. Good Luck to him and I really do wish him well.
I am still a bit sick with my cold today, and am out of bed and done my routine so far for today. Well a little about my morning routine. I get up in the morning, get half dressed(Pajama bottoms and t-shirt) , grab a coffee and cigarette and take the girls to the park so they can have their morning pee. The cats tend to follow us for our morning walk.
Yesterday Matthew and I went to Pumpjack, had a few drinks and visited with friends. Matt has a few more people that say hi to him than I do. There is Stewie and Lane, not alot of use for them but they do like Matt so I am tolerant. There is also Toliver and his partner and I really just can't stand them and they me. They can't and never have even tried to be nice.Not that I need them to be because I think I am done with people like them and all they really want is sex anyhow and not with me but with Matt. Useless to me in every way and what I just despise in gay men is men like them. Met quite a few of them in the last couple years.
We did get to visit with my friend Tom and his new friend Don who he has just started dating in the last 2 weeks. He seems like a nice fellow. Had a good time but was so tired from this cold.
Also got to say goodbye to Nakib, who leaves for Edmonton on thursday to start his new life. Good Luck to him and I really do wish him well.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
January 2nd
Woke up this morning and am still a bit sick with my cold and chest infection. We are suppose to go to Pumpjack this afternoon and meet friends. My friend Tom and Matt`s friend Miko and his supposed partner.
Let me tell you a bit of what I know about Miko, as far as I know the man does not speak a true word and is a total user. He is constantly telling Matt stories and they just seem to get bigger and bigger. Any how Miko is in Vancouver from Toronto at the moment and staying at a variety of hotels. Miko and Matt used to be roommates here in the house. I will fill you in more on Miko later.
I just hope I am feeling well enough to go out.
Let me tell you a bit of what I know about Miko, as far as I know the man does not speak a true word and is a total user. He is constantly telling Matt stories and they just seem to get bigger and bigger. Any how Miko is in Vancouver from Toronto at the moment and staying at a variety of hotels. Miko and Matt used to be roommates here in the house. I will fill you in more on Miko later.
I just hope I am feeling well enough to go out.
A Year In Review Part 3
January 2, 2011 and I am going to finish my year in Review finally. September was a quiet month for us and as you already know I lost my lovely job on the 15th, a real shock to both Matthew and I. The reason I lost this job is because I worked for a real Ass and he stuck me in a restaurant to manage a bunch of children, who thought that they could run their own place. Oh well I am better off away from there. We also bought a new couch and new bed in September.
October brought another trip to Alberta to spend a week with my Mom during her radiation treatment, Matthew and I drove out to the farm and then on to Edmonton with Mom, I think Matt was more shocked than I to see the way that cancer had affected Mom. The week was long in Edmonton and very hard on me, to watch her go through this. Matt got to meet some of my old friends, Nev, Ian and Ann. We also had a house guest for the month of October, Jurgen, my now ex best friend. This turned out to be a real mistake and hell for a the entire month. He ended up being very immature and Matt thought he had a crush on me. Jurgen ended up moving out the first part of November and then went on to move to Alberta without a word. A friend for over 12 years and can't even pick up the phone and let us know he was leaving.
Mom Finished all her treatments the end of October and the doctors said that she will suffer side effects fro 3 to 6 months from the chemo and radiation and they will do another CT Scan in March of 2011 to see if her cancer is in remition.
November brought us a much nice and friendlier house guest for a week. Matthew's friends Donna and Andrea came up from Chicago and I got to meet them. This was a complete pleasure. We also decided in November to start our own business and do Home Renovations, Remodeling and Painting and Staging. We started by redoing Matts parents house. When we started we had to strip all the wallpaper, paint, remove carpets and redo the upper bath. This took me 6 weeks and Matt was there for 4 weeks. Hopefully our work there will help our business to take off. Hopefully we will be able to make our business successful and stay here in Vancouver.
December brought rest and relaxation and Matts parents return from Belize where they were during the entire month of November and while we were redoing the house. I got to go to the hospital on the 15ht and was in excruciating pain and found out I had kidney stones, ouch.Matt and his dad flew off to New York because his Uncle was dying. They left on December 18th and unfortunately Uncle Elrich passed away on the 21st. Thankfully though Matt and His father returned in time for Christmas. Matts Mom and I became very close while they were away in New York.
Christmas was great this year and I got the most amazing gifts from Matthew and we also bought a new Tv and Blueray player in December. Anyway the great gifts I got were 3 amazing T-shirts from FCUK in New York and a T-shirt from Ground Zero in New York and the best gift I have ever received from any one a Dolce and Gabana Belt.
We had our traditional Christmas dinner with Matt's parents.
Well that is our year, I just want to take a moment to remember those who we lost last year. Matt's Uncle Bernie and Uncle Elrich, my friends Dorin Hughs, Sean Stone, Patrick Chevelier, Jim Wilcox, Irene Gourlay, Ann Hughs, Ed Bergrenn, My Moms Uncle and Aunt from Calgary and My Fathers Aunt Velma. Quite a year for death.
October brought another trip to Alberta to spend a week with my Mom during her radiation treatment, Matthew and I drove out to the farm and then on to Edmonton with Mom, I think Matt was more shocked than I to see the way that cancer had affected Mom. The week was long in Edmonton and very hard on me, to watch her go through this. Matt got to meet some of my old friends, Nev, Ian and Ann. We also had a house guest for the month of October, Jurgen, my now ex best friend. This turned out to be a real mistake and hell for a the entire month. He ended up being very immature and Matt thought he had a crush on me. Jurgen ended up moving out the first part of November and then went on to move to Alberta without a word. A friend for over 12 years and can't even pick up the phone and let us know he was leaving.
Mom Finished all her treatments the end of October and the doctors said that she will suffer side effects fro 3 to 6 months from the chemo and radiation and they will do another CT Scan in March of 2011 to see if her cancer is in remition.
November brought us a much nice and friendlier house guest for a week. Matthew's friends Donna and Andrea came up from Chicago and I got to meet them. This was a complete pleasure. We also decided in November to start our own business and do Home Renovations, Remodeling and Painting and Staging. We started by redoing Matts parents house. When we started we had to strip all the wallpaper, paint, remove carpets and redo the upper bath. This took me 6 weeks and Matt was there for 4 weeks. Hopefully our work there will help our business to take off. Hopefully we will be able to make our business successful and stay here in Vancouver.
December brought rest and relaxation and Matts parents return from Belize where they were during the entire month of November and while we were redoing the house. I got to go to the hospital on the 15ht and was in excruciating pain and found out I had kidney stones, ouch.Matt and his dad flew off to New York because his Uncle was dying. They left on December 18th and unfortunately Uncle Elrich passed away on the 21st. Thankfully though Matt and His father returned in time for Christmas. Matts Mom and I became very close while they were away in New York.
Christmas was great this year and I got the most amazing gifts from Matthew and we also bought a new Tv and Blueray player in December. Anyway the great gifts I got were 3 amazing T-shirts from FCUK in New York and a T-shirt from Ground Zero in New York and the best gift I have ever received from any one a Dolce and Gabana Belt.
We had our traditional Christmas dinner with Matt's parents.
Well that is our year, I just want to take a moment to remember those who we lost last year. Matt's Uncle Bernie and Uncle Elrich, my friends Dorin Hughs, Sean Stone, Patrick Chevelier, Jim Wilcox, Irene Gourlay, Ann Hughs, Ed Bergrenn, My Moms Uncle and Aunt from Calgary and My Fathers Aunt Velma. Quite a year for death.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Welcome 2011
Good Morning all, 2011 is now among us and I am tired and truly sick. New Years Eve was a quiet one for Matthew and I, but at least we brought it in together.
I have been sick with a cold the last couple of days and today is no better and to top it all off, I didn't get a hole lot of sleep last night either, but I have vowed to write every day and I am going to.
Froy came over yesterday afternoon to perform a business transaction with Matthew and then we all sat here visiting on the couch and watching the Star Trek Movies on Space Channel all day, oh yeah and drinking Vodka and Cranberry Juice. He stayed and had dinner with us which is always a treat to have someone over, I love to entertain, well if the company is good that is.
Matthew made an amazing meal of course, did I mention he is actually a trained Chef, and a very good one too. Such a talented man. Anyhow I am getting off the subject.
We all had dinner, sat back on the couch and visited a bit more and watched Antz and had a couple more vodka and Matt and Froy smoked a little. Froy left us around 9pm as we all had to get ready to go to Bo and Hopes for New Years. We toddled over to their house around 10:30 or so and I continued to drink my Vodkas. The five of us sat in the front room over there , just talking and eating snacks. Matt got a couple good pictures of all us. it was a very relaxed and quiet evening and was nice to bring in New Years with our friends, though I wish there had been a few more. We were all kind of late in planning what to do for New Years. Oh well I got to bring it in with the man I love and Kiss him at midnight, so that is the main thing. All 5 of us brought in the 2011 together in the back yard by the fire.
Got home here around 2am and I could not sleep at all finally got to sleep around 5am and here I am up at 8:30 to walk the dogs and drink coffee.
Well I wish you all a great New year and all the Best in 2011. I will finish my year in Review later on in the day.
I have been sick with a cold the last couple of days and today is no better and to top it all off, I didn't get a hole lot of sleep last night either, but I have vowed to write every day and I am going to.
Froy came over yesterday afternoon to perform a business transaction with Matthew and then we all sat here visiting on the couch and watching the Star Trek Movies on Space Channel all day, oh yeah and drinking Vodka and Cranberry Juice. He stayed and had dinner with us which is always a treat to have someone over, I love to entertain, well if the company is good that is.
Matthew made an amazing meal of course, did I mention he is actually a trained Chef, and a very good one too. Such a talented man. Anyhow I am getting off the subject.
We all had dinner, sat back on the couch and visited a bit more and watched Antz and had a couple more vodka and Matt and Froy smoked a little. Froy left us around 9pm as we all had to get ready to go to Bo and Hopes for New Years. We toddled over to their house around 10:30 or so and I continued to drink my Vodkas. The five of us sat in the front room over there , just talking and eating snacks. Matt got a couple good pictures of all us. it was a very relaxed and quiet evening and was nice to bring in New Years with our friends, though I wish there had been a few more. We were all kind of late in planning what to do for New Years. Oh well I got to bring it in with the man I love and Kiss him at midnight, so that is the main thing. All 5 of us brought in the 2011 together in the back yard by the fire.
Got home here around 2am and I could not sleep at all finally got to sleep around 5am and here I am up at 8:30 to walk the dogs and drink coffee.
Well I wish you all a great New year and all the Best in 2011. I will finish my year in Review later on in the day.
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