Me and My Nature

Good Day From your Gay Neighbor
  I am by nature a very giving and I think considerate person. I tend to always as my mother says put others first and perhaps this is a problem. Maybe I need to come first.  I am also a very jealous person and I have become that way due to mistrust in every person I have ever been with. I love and wear my heart on my sleeve. All my feelings are always easily read and I hide nothing from anyone and can`t and actually won`t.
 This are all a part of me and a part of who I am and who I accept, if you love me , you accept all these traits or flaws, whatever you want to call them as a part of me and take me as a whole. I am very blunt and almost too honest which may sometimes hurt people , but i think I say what needs to be said and have promised myself that I will do this for me.
  I have my good and bad days and so does everyone else. When I have a bad day, you are probably best to just stay out of my way and leave me alone.
 The reasons I am jealous are that I have always felt like I am second best to everyone in my life and because of partners cheating on me and making me feel that way. Perhaps I am the reason people cheat and perhaps they are the reason and I just don`t give them a good enough reason not too. I can`t answer that in full because I feel it is different in every relationship. Sometimes it may be my fault but at other times it is definitely not.
  I am also a very misunderstood individual and always have been. Misunderstood because people do not always know how to take what I say and whether or not I am being serious or joking. Take the time to get to know me and you will figure that out.
  If you are in my life and truly a great friend you will know all this about me already. There are not too many people who I actually think know me and truly get me and who and what I am. And also who I let in completely, you are a select few.