Is It Me?

I am by nature a very needy person but at the same time a very independent man. I always have the need to be liked and loved as we all do. So when people are a bit stand offish towards me I have to sit back and wonder what the hell I have done and then I worry. I worry not so much about me , but as to how this will effect Matthew or other people in my life. I tend to judge people and go by instinct and my first impression is usually the one that sticks when I am meeting someone.
I worry for Matthew a lot as I know that I either directly or indirectly have stopped him from seeing people and going out with old friends or acquaintances. It is hard when you are in a relationship though because if your old friends don't like your new partner it makes it difficult to socialize with them at all. Also you always have to remember that we all change when we get into a relationship and become a couple. 
I often think that a lot of people would be happier if we had broken up and if Matt was still single and back to the way he was before I came along. But I hope that this is not true as I would want my friends to be happy and if someone came into their life, even if I didn't like them I would be happy for my friend. Is that so hard?
I am lucky as my friends and family see how happy Matt makes me and lets face it, they have seen some of my past partners so they know how good Matthew is for me and how we compliment each other.
So in the end I guess I have answered my own question, it is not me , it is them and they have to just get use to and be happy for their friends as do I.