Our Good Night Conversations

Matthew and I have gotten in the habit of talking about important things late at night. It is nice to discuss the different things that are important to both of us. On Wednesday night before I fell asleep we discussed marriage again and whether to elope and have a party after wards or to just have a big wedding. I don't need a big wedding. I would be happy with just getting married here in the house with a couple witnesses and then having a party for all of our friends and family who wants to come over after wards.
I have waited for years to have the right to get married here and have the same rights as all my brothers and sisters and friends and everyone else and when that came about, I couldn't wait to get married! I lived in Toronto right after it became law that same sex couples could get married and because at that time I was not with anyone who wanted what I did at that time, so I worked at a B and B in Toronto for a while and planned same sex marriages and worked with couples both from Canada and the USA to get married. I think all gay men and women want to get married at some point in their life. But enough about that, I know that Matt and I will get married and I hope we have a nice ceremony and a great future together.
Last night our late night before we fell asleep discussion was about peoples perception when you apply for a job and what the interviewer sees and what they want to see and who I imagined they would hire. My opinion on this is that if I had a full head of hair I would have a job. People here primarily hire on looks and perception of what they first see! I use to wear a topee' at some points in my life and am thinking lately I may have to go back to that. It is like if a woman shows up at an interview in Yoga Pants and doesn't have her hair and make up done, she is likely to not get the job. I dress very well and whiten my teeth and do everything I can to look good, but having thinning hair does make me look older I believe! It is my biggest bother in life and really if I could afford it, I think I would get a hair transplant and just be done with it.
I guess that makes me a very vain person or does it? I just want what we all want, I want to be looked at and to feel attractive all the time. I think everyone wants that.