On me way to see the husband

Well I finally did it, I got the flight booked and ma headed to Vancouver for 10 days to spend with my hubby. I arrive tomorrow morning and am looking so forward to it. I have never missed anyone quite so much and will be so glad when I get to give him a big kiss and a hug when he meets me at the airport. We are also going to have a small informal party to celebrate our wedding on August 6th. Not too many people from Vancouver that I care to invite, but there is few I would love to see and to have there to celebrate.
I do not now regret leaving Vancouver for I am happy, I am married to the man I love and there is such a positive energy around me, I just want to get up and go in the mornings and do stuff and have fun and live. Toronto is invigerating for me and just wonderful in every way.er I would be done on the phone with him.
Going to vancouver will be bitter sweet in many ways, I get to spend time with my husband, see his parents and a few friends that I have left there, but eventually I have to leave my husband again and come back here. That is the saddest part and I hate it when we have to leave each other. When Matthew left here i think I cried for 2 days at the drop of a hat, it was just weird, I cried from song, a movie or even just seeing his picture or after I would get off the phone with him. Eventually I will have to get used to not being with him all the time and soon enough we will be together all the time.

The Waiting Game

A game we all play, the waiting game, waiting to live , waiting to die, waiting for acceptance and waiting for love. Waiting for news from a friend or a loved one. Waiting for the phone to ring, or your favorite program to come on the television, waiting for the work day to end.I have learned how to live, found love, I have acceptance in my of my life and tolerance in most who I meet and have in my life. Waiting to die, well I hope I never do, though I know we all will at some point in our lives. This week I am waiting for my check and really need that to come in today or tomorrow. I have all the bills coming out in the next week and need to cover this stuff so it is done.
It is Pride week in Vancouver and in Montreal this week and I am sure it is in many other cities as well, I want to wish all my friends celebrating Pride where ever you are a very happy Pride and now after all is done we can wait for next year for it to come back and we can celebrate again. i try to celebrate my pride everyday of my life , because I am proud and not of just being gay , but of being a very strong, loving and outgoing, opinionated and loved gay man with many great friends and a very hot husband.
Today I have a doctors appointment and then another busy day tomorrow and then the weekend , thanks to me every day right at the moment is a day off, so weekends are truly irrelevant at this point and time. I have to go and fix that when I get home, went to Johnny G's yesterday and talked to Betty about a job and may have one with her when I get back. I also got an email from L Eat Catering and may have an interview with them tomorrow. I just hope they give me some notice and let me know sooner than later.
Yesterday I went to Walmart and picked up our wedding photos that I had printed and made a really cute album. Got a couple large ones done as well and have the picture of Matthew and I sitting by the tv now, so now, no matter where I am in the apartment I can see our wedding picture. Love you Matthew and thanks to all my readers for your support. have a great week and again Happy Pride to everyone in Montreal and Vancouver or where ever you may be celebrating or if you are like me, Happy Pride everyday of the year.

Still Searching for a Flight

I have still been searching for flights and trying to get to Vancouver to see my husband. I miss him lots and just want to be next to him for a week or so. Wayne has offered to take the girls for the time I would be gone and to look after them for me, so sweet of him. Sadly it does not look as though I am going out to Vancouver, Westjet, Air Canada and Sunwing are all too expensive to fly out there at the moment. Crazy I know. I have spent hours looking at flights and seeing when they leave and the costs. With Sunwing I phoned them this morning and this was my question, Why are your taxes double of Air Canada and West Jet and why are they not explained and split up as to what the taxes are? Easy question , I think, not sure why they couldn't answer it.
So I have decided not to use Sunwing unless they have this incredible special on sometime, but at the moment I am pissed at them and am giving you all advice to look at the damn taxes and make sure they are explained as to what they are and why they are as much as they are.
Also tried to fly out standby and was told they no longer do that at all, with Air Canada or West Jet. Not sure why. I am also curious how flights that are not full raise their prices on the last couple days instead of lowering them. This to me is weird as well. I just don't get it.
So it is looking as though I am not going to make it out to see my husband, hoping his room mate Tim will be staying in Canada for another year so that Matthew can fly out here in August and we won't have to worry bout the cats for now. We have been talking lots on the phone and on msn as of lately so it is nice to be together and to see him in that way at least. I still miss my lobster and was so looking forward to being next to him, well I may have to wait and look at flights for him to come out here sooner than later. I love you Matthew and miss you.

Sunday Sunday

Things are going well and the heat has been very extreme this week so most of my time has been spent in doors with the air conditioner on. I have been out applying for work and talking with old friends about jobs as well and also been looking for a flight so I can go out to Vancouver and see my husband. I would really like to be there with him for a week or so but the reality is that it may not happen and that has seriously been bothering me and hurting me in so many ways. Last night i just lost it and got mad at Matt and then I sat here and cried all night. It was a shitty night and crazy time for both of us and a very emotional one. I never doubt the love we have for each other and know that Matthew loves me very much, but it is just so hard on both of us to be so far apart and to start our marriage that way. I can tell when I talk with Matt that he is going through the same stresses that I am and that he misses me more than I miss him at times. But all and all life is good and we will conquer this as we have many other things through out our relationship.
Yesterday was a totally interesting day for me, I walked to Future Shop and bought a portable hard drive, was on my way home, just walking and minding my own business and this guy pulls up beside me and told me I was hot, which was shocking in the least, all sweaty and walking in an old pair of shorts and a tank top. I said thanks and kept walking, he followed me in his car, weird to say the least, you never know if they area murderer or just someone looking for sex or whatever. I just wasn't sure, so I thought what the hell I will stop and talk to him, you never know , could be a friend of the future and who am I to judge anyone at this point in my life. Anyhow he gave me his name and number and I thought what the hell, I'll give him a call and just see. He called back and talked for a bit. Then I had another guy who I talked to on a chat sight and he turned out to be a dating stalker and wanted to have dinner and everything, sorry but I was just looking for something else and it wasn't a date, I am married and happy to be so, what part of that do people not understand. I am not sure! This is a part of gay life that makes it really hard for anyone, as soon as you are attached, everyone wants you and sometimes that makes you feel good and attractive, yesterday at first I felt really attractive and then I felt really sad, because it made me miss the man that truly loves me and who I am in love with. Well today I am going to keep busy and just do my own thing, go for a walk and do some window shopping and stuff and keep my mind busy. I truly need to go back to work and soon, but I also want a job that is going to treat me right and be a good fit for both myself and my employer. Anyhow tomorrow is another day and I am making the best of everything and everyday that I can. I am happy in life and have no regrets, hopefully I can keep it that way, after all everything is mind over matter, right?
Matthew had a crazy day yesterday as well and went over to his parents and then had to drive his room mate Tim(from New Zealand) to the states to renew his visa to work in Canada for another year. So he had a really long day and a long night the night before, I think we have both had many sleepless nights since he left for back to Vancouver and that is hard on both of us. I can hear it in his voice how much he misses me and I know how much I miss him and we both look forward to the time when we can sit here in Toronto together. Hope you all have a great day, I am going to try and have one as well. To my Matthew i love you and never doubt your love for me. have a great day from your gay neighbor.

My Gay Life and the stuff before in review

Well I figure I owe most people a recap of who I am and where I come from and what I have been through to get to this point in my life. When I was a young boy I grew up in a very small Alberta town and believe me it was small and still wonderful. I had the best friends in the world and am still friends with most of them, or at least the few that are important to me, all girls by the way. While growing up there I knew I was gay or shall I say I knew something was different about me from a very early age and I had to live a lie, because I really wasn't sure at all. I dated girls all through grade school and then through secondary school and then I got engaged to a girl before I was even 18, because I thought that was the right thing to do. After I was 15 I started to see an older man on the down low and believe me it was very discrete, no one then and no one now knows his name and that is one I will take to my grave, after all it was a promise I made to never tell and if you know me at all, you know I keep my promises.
Anyways from 14 to 16 was actually a living hell for me in school and I was ridiculed, picked on and made fun of, I can hardly remember any boys even talking to me those years unless they were calling me nasty names or picking on me or just ignoring me and always making me feel like I don't belong, thank god I had the girls.
I left home at a a very early age and still had all this shit to deal with on a daily basis from people. I waited on tables which didn't help my situation at all. I chose to take my high school courses by correspondence and then wrote my GED exam. I never had a prom, nor have I ever gone back to a high school reunion.
My life has always been move and just run from these people until I was in my 20's I did this because I thought that if I left where I was it would stop and my life would get better, it didn't. Not to matter where I went until I hit the big city of Edmonton when I was 25 and came out fully flaming and screaming. Came out actively to my family when I was 26 and that was actually harder than all the bullying I had put up with to that point, I was so damn worried about hurting everyone I loved.
I had my first real relationship when I was 26 and that didn't last too long, my mistake I guess, I left Nick and soon after found my first love, the city of Vancouver, I loved that city and well i was there trying to get work which just never panned out and I was so wowed with the size and beauty of Vancouver that I settled and did things i never thought I would. Yes I did porn and had my photos taken for money and lived in a dumpy little room above a bar, with a pet cockroach. Not the greatest life and I managed to keep it for about 6months and then went back to Edmonton. I then met Henry and I was now in a relationship really quickly again, we were together for just over 2 years and it was great for a while but things got bad quickly, Henry had a drinking problem and a young man problem as well, yes he cheated and left me for someone else. I soon after that met James and well I just went from bad to worse. I was no longer in a relationship with a man with a drinking problem, but now I was living with a man in a very mentally and physically abusive relationship  with a drug user and by drugs I don't mean pot. He was full on into coke and crack and used to just beat me and threaten me for no reasons at all. He threatened me daily that if I ever tried to leave he would kill me. Once I got away from James, I left for Vancouver again and this time I was successful and got a great management job in a Vegetarian restaurant, the in a gay bar and then another gay bar. I was popular and on my way, finally being gay paid off, for the first time ever. It always did , cause it was me , it just didn't feel like it. I managed to be one of the most well known persons in The Vancouver Gay Community, everyone said hi to me, single , popular, back in the city I fell in love with years ago, everything was great. I left my job at Numbers after almost 2 years , went to Calgary for a while and things just got worse again, in another physically abusive relationship and with another man who lies and cheats, how the hell did I fall into this pattern, over 30 and still I attract these men. Really? Yes really.
After my failed time in Calgary I went back to Vancouver for a while, but when you are not managing a gay bar anymore, all of a sudden your popularity disappears. Vancouver was no longer the city I loved, it fell out of love with me and rather quickly. I soon went back to Edmonton for a bit and reconnected with the past through an old job. Soon after that I found the internet and this was now my new ticket to dating, I met many people in Toronto and decided to take the plunge after about a year and move out here and go and meet them and look for the man of my dreams, met a few I thought were them , but sadly they weren't. I dated a man named Wayne here in Toronto for a few years , just over 5 I do believe. He was sweet and wonderful and loved me but I was never in love with him and I don't think he was with me either, but we are still great friends.
Little did I know my true love, my lobster was in Vancouver all the time, I just hadn't met him yet! Will get to that shortly.
During my 30's life was not perfect but I always had a job and managed to get by day to day. I was gay bashed 3 times in my life and have had other things which were worse happen to me as well. I shall keep those a secret for now.
Well it is late and I will finish telling you the rest of my story tomorrow , have a  great night!

Sleepless Night

Well last night was possibly the hottest night I have ever been alive to see. I was ready for bed at 10pm and so tired and text Matt to say good night. Got into bed and well wouldn't you know I could not sleep at all. It was a whopping temperature of 38 this morning at 3am, ridiculous I say. I finally got to sleep around 4am, not at all what I expected.
I lied down at around 10 and felt so tired, perhaps too tired to actually sleep, so I lied there for over 2 hours an then got up and did what I do best, sat on line and then text Matthew and then chatted with him on MSN for over an hour, which was just amazing as per usual. We have the best talks as of late and we can say so much that had never been said before and this time I feel all the love he has for me.
Got up this morning bright and early at around 7am and went to meet Rick for a quick coffee this morning and took the dogs for a long walk before it gets too damn hot today. it is suppose to break records here in Toronto and is actually already a temperature of 38 with humidity and suppose to get up 37 without humidity and 48 with the humidity. It makes the city so hazy and hot and sticky.
Well I hope everyone beats the heat today and you all have a great day. I am going to try to and maybe I will get some sleep later as well.

Gay life gets better, but it takes time

Matthew is so cute since we got married! Well he was before, but now it is just adorably cute and so sweet. He texts me every morning to say he loves me and Good Morning. I look forward to those so much, it just makes my day to see those words from someone who I truly am in love with.
Things do work out for the best and if you just wait and let things run their course then everything will end up the way it is suppose to be and you just go with it and accept what life has in store for you. Yes we make our own paths and choose our own ways , but not without a little help from others.
I honestly thought when I was younger and being teased and picked on and ridiculed before I even knew i was gay, that I would never be this happy and here I am. So just to let you know, if you are a young gay man or women and people are judging you and being ignorant, life does get better and you can be a very happy and openly gay person and live your life for you. I know I am now!
When I came out and told everyone who needed to know that I was gay, life became very different and and much harder for me in many ways. I went through many disfunctional relationships and had a terrible time in the public eye and with some of my I thought were friends and a few family members as well. And yes I understand this was hard for other people, but it was especially hard for me. I was just finally figuring out who I was and where I belonged in the world. No more pretending to be someone else.
I think this is the hardest thing for any gay or lesbian person to do, because all of a sudden life changes for you and everyone around you and things become very different in every ones eyes.
All i am saying in the end is that it is worth the wait, so no matter how much people bully you, pick on you and belittle you, hold on, because it gets better you just have to wait it out and let things run their course. I know it is hard and I would not have believed those words myself, but it happened to me and now I do. Good luck to you all and thanks for reading. have a great day, Love your gay neighbor.

The heat this week

Well it has been so hot this week and I am actually so brown now an love that part, but the heat, let me tell you, it is a real killer in more ways than one. I think I may actually have a little bit of sun stroke from the warm weather.
It has been well above 40 every day so far this week and yesterday I was out in a black suit all morning and looking for work, so with wearing the all black and the heat off the pavement, I am thinking it has made me a bit sick, but oh well at least I had a couple interviews.
Today I was a bad boy and sat outside on my balcony for a bit and got a bit more tanned, and then I cleaned my windows and the railing on the balcony, which really needed it bad. Now everything is cleaned and looking really good, and I am so proud of the little apartment now.
So anyways tonight not feeling my best I had to phone my hubby and hear his voice and it made me feel a bit better, nothing like being alone when you are not well and missing someone so much. It just helps when he says he loves me and misses me and even though it did not make feel better physically, it sure as to hell made me feel a lot better mentally.

Looking for Flights is HELL

Well I have been looking for a cheap flight now so I can go and spend a week with my husband and see him and just lie next to him. I miss him so much and just wish that he was here. Today was an extremely emotional and sad day for some reason. Things just hit me and I felt alone again. I was just having a really sad day. I will keep checking every day and see if I can land a seat sale on one of the airlines here soon and make it out to Vancouver for my husband and for PRIDE at the end of the month.
This traveling back and forth is for the birds, but I know that we can make it work, we just may not see each other as much as we originally thought and that is cool, but when we do get to be together we will just have to make sure that we spend the most time together and to spend every minute together in our thoughts even when we are not in the same city. Every day we speak on Msn and I get to see his gorgeous smile and hear him laugh which just brightens my day and makes me wake up and get all the shit done that I need to do. I know it is the same for him. He is my lobster. 
I got some good news today and a lead on a job, not that I was worried about that. An old friend of mine in the catering business may be able to get me on as a supervisor with the company he works with. I will just keep looking until I hear anything, because you just never know and anyhow it is what it is and out of my hands at this point. I just have to wow someone and hopefully they won't be some sort of asshole. So back to the job search is going well and I am at least getting interviews with owners and managers and this is more than I got in Vancouver and the energy here is so much more positive. It just makes me happier and more positive as well. I actually want to get up in the morning and go outside instead of sitting on the couch. I am in love with my husband and my new city. Things are great.
Have a great day, Love your gay neighbor!

Hubby back in Vancouver for a week now

Well Matthew has been back in Vancouver for a week now and things are going great for both of us, although it is hard at times and we truly miss each other, this is what it is right now and we are happy in our lives. I am so happy that life has taken me on the course that it has and that the path I have chosen has actually worked out. It just goes to show that if you can deal with all the shit life gives you eventually you will hit something good.
Matthew and I went through a few rough patches and we made it. I have also realized that I need to be less needy and a lot less controlling of my life and just let it go. This was actually a huge challenge for me , but I am managing quite well with it all.
This is why Matt and I are now happy, because we both learned to let go and just let things ride as they will. Any how this is what works for us and made us stronger as a couple.
God I miss him a lot especially on days like today when it is so hot out that all you can do is sit on the couch half naked in front of the air conditioner. I get to talk to him almost daily on MSN, but it is not the same as seeing him in person and kissing his lips and touching him and going for walks and holding his hand. I miss holding his hand the most.
I keep looking for a cheap flight to Vancouver every day so I can go and join him for PRIDE in Vancouver. I would love nothing more than to go out there and just be there with him for a week and celebrate another PRIDE together like we did here. I also want to have a party for our friends in Vancouver and just celebrate our wedding and union. We haven't yet to have any wedding celebrations which is not important but it would be so nice to see certain people and let them celebrate with us.
Hope you are all having a great day and I will be back later to write some more for you. To my husband, I miss you lots and hope you are having a rain free day in Vancouver. Today it is hot as hell here and 41 already with the humidity. I am sweating like a pig.

Interview, A word I never hardly heard in Vancouver

Well I have been hitting the pavement all week and do not currently have another job but at least I have heard the word interview and am happy with that. Also very happy to be staying away from those People whom I once worked for here in Toronto. I have decided not to be treated like shit anymore and am good with waiting for the right job instead of taking the first job that comes along. I have also been looking at going back to school and getting a degree in interior design. It is something I truly enjoy and am actually really good at. Putting colors together and making a room work. I also really enjoy painting and redoing rooms and sewing and all those exciting thing and I love shopping for materials and stuff like that.
I have an interview today and it si for a job that is not in a restaurant and I am totally willing to try it and see if I can do this and if it is right for me. I have decided to no longer work full time on my feet and do not want to deal with people all the time and especially do not want to babysit a bosses children and himself and his family. Really get off your ass and grab your own coffee and clean up your own table when you and your family eat dinner at the restaurant.

I miss my Husband

Matthew has only been gone for a few days now and I totally miss him and think of him every minute and the girls and I miss him so much. I never actually thought that I could miss a man so much, but I do! Yesterday I think I talked to him 3 times on the phone and then 2 times on MSN. MSN is the most fun, because we can have a video chat and I can see him, my little lobster.
There is so much to take care of and we have so much to do, including planning our wedding parties and I am thinking that we may have to do 3 of them, This is my thought on the whole thing, 1 party in Vancouver for Matthews friends and a couple of my old friends and then a party in Alberta for all my friends and family and Matthews friends in Calgary, then a final party here in Toronto. I think this way we cover all of our friends and family.
So let me know what you think and what you would do.
I can't wait for Matt and the kids to move out here and for us to get a really nice place together again and make our home here in Toronto as a married couple. And the cats and dogs are back together again and we are one big family again. I knew when he came out here that I wanted to marry him and be with him forever. I love you and miss you Matt and can't wait till you are here again.

My Big Fat Greek Ex Employer

Well this man turned out to be a total ass and idiot and so unappreciative of anything that anyone does. He and his brother are both just total jerks, and that would be a kind word to say to him in any way. I am no longer employed with them at all but am not giving up at all, I am in Toronto and know that I will have another job very soon and I am going to do my best not to work for some asshole greek again. Never had much luck with them.
Yesterday I was out doing errands and stuff and was across from the restaurant and all of a sudden Themys is standing out side and giving me a dirty look because I am on the street. I just can't believe the childish way this ass hole of a man who said he was my friend is behaving! Like really what is that all about, He is in his 60's and acting like a child.
When I came back to Toronto, he and his wife asked me to come back to work and that was great, then they had me doing extras for them and stuff like scheduling and cleaning lists for the front of house and helping with PRIDE and all that other shit that I guess they are just not smart enough to do. I gladly helped and did all that I could well not even making minimum wage for the first 3 weeks as the cheap bastard ripped me off. I worked my butt of as I always do and I really have to learn to just do what everyone else does, go in wait on tables and leave, not worry if things are perfect, just make my money and go.
Buyer beware stay away from Daybreak and the Greek cook who pisses out back and doesn't even wash his hands, yes that is true!

Back to the real world

Well Matt is back in Vancouver and had another long flight and then ended up on a broken down sky train so who knows what time he got to the house in Vancouver, all I know is I was sleeping by 3am. Hard to sleep alone again but I just have to get used to it because I know it is not forever and he will be back soon or I will be there, either way it will be great and we will be together as much as possible.
Matthew's parents are coming out to see family in August and I am really hoping that they put some time aside to come and visit me and the girls. His parents and I really get along and I wish they were out here living so it would be easier for Matt to move. I am close to my family, but not near the closeness Matt has with his folks. Hell I don't really speak to my family except my Mom and my one sister and occasionally my nephews, nieces and my younger brother and sister in laws through facebook, but they never call here, and I don't even have their numbers.
The girls an I are missing our Matthew a great deal and it will be so hard for a few days to get back to life and him not being here again. I am sure it will be the same for him in Vancouver. Although I knew what I was in for with a long distance marriage, I never actually knew it would be this hard and it is, time will make it all better and absence definitely makes the heart grow fonder. I miss my lobster! Love you baby.
I am out looking for work again today and this week and getting back to the grind, I am no longer at Day Break and feel totally used by them and am also very hurt by the fact that they would think I would steal or anything else. It is just ridiculous, but I guess that is how they can cover up the fact that they threatened me and put their fist right in my face, my what an ass. But I do have to say they sure protect their own, too bad they are living in the past and think they are the only ones who matter and have a say in the world. Old Greek men of a different nature. Going to go to Eggstacy tomorrow, Themys former partner and if nothing else maybe they will give me a job for putting up with him.
I remember sitting there at work a week before I was told I was nothing and Themys and his ignorant brother George were yelling at Stella , She is Themys wife, the poor thing. Anyhow they were yelling at her and arguing in Greek and telling Stella that women are nothing and that she has no say in the business and needs to keep her nose out of stuff. She and the rest of us that wait on tables are all nothing to them and never will be anything except someone to actually make them some money. I hope he looses his restaurant and goes under, because he and his brother just deserve it. They are ruthless and rude. Come on you old f***s, it is the year 2011, not 1965. Get with it!

He is on a Plane

Well Matthew left a couple hours ago and is now on his plane back to Vancouver. It feels so weird to not be with him again after the last two weeks and just being so in love in with him all over again. I am so glad for the last two weeks and all of the fun we have had, our wedding, our extra activities, Pride, our fun with new and old friends. It was the most amazing times and we had so much fun together.
Everyone is asking so many questions including my mom, and they are all the same questions about where we are going to live, when is Matt moving here, am I moving back to Vancouver, are we selling the house and so on and so on. Well as I say to everyone Matthew and I have a lot to discuss and we will make all of our decisions together as a married couple, and discuss it and figure out what is best for the both of us and our four kids, by kids I mean the 2 dogs and 2 cats. Those are our kids.
I even had one friend ask if it was a real marriage, why yes it is! I am truly married and we are really happy and just happy to be in love and together.
Well time to wait for his call now and check his flight status again and see where he is in the air. Where ever you are I love you and miss you and will talk to you soon.

Words to live by

LIFE is very SHORT.........
So BREAK silly RULES!!!!!!!!!!
FORGIVE quickly...
BELIEVE slowly...
LOVE truly....
LAUGH loudly...
AND
NEVER AVOID ANYTHING THAT MAKES YOU SMILE!!!!!!!!

My Big Fat Greek Employer

Holy crap, my big fat greek employer is an asshole and so is his brother. Any how here is the story and why I can say this now. I went back to work at Daybreak and was so happy for a bit, but then slowly realized I was being used in every way by Themys and his brother and not being compensated for it. They are both idiots and it is even amazing that they can run a restaurant.
Here is what happened, Pride Sunday, Matt came in and bussed tables for us for 4 hours and thanks to him for doing this, he pulled us out of the weeds. Because we were sinking and quick, especially with the shit kitchen we have there, when they learn how to cook I will let you know. Any how Matt worked his ass off for 4 hours and then left, the day just got worse from there and busier as well. Later in the day Stella fell inside the door and dropped a Corona bottle and then landed on it. Cut really bad , her and Themys had to leave. I looked after the restaurant, took over Stellas section, did my section and comforted their daughter. All of which I did not mind at the time cause I thought they were my friends.
I was so wrong. On Monday afternoon, Matt came in for lunch around 12:30, a really quiet time , Themys and Stella still at the hospital for day number 2, Themys brother George sitting in the restaurant  and watching every move we made. Matt ordered Fish and Chips and a beer, I punch it all in and paid for it as I always do. This is what happened next, the kitchen not reading bills as per usual made 2 orders of fish and chips, I gave the extra piece of fish to Matt, not thinking anything of it, otherwise it would have gone in the garbage. The kitchen threw a fit, George then got involved and threw a bigger fit. Matt sat there had his lunch and George stared at him the whole damn time, how uncomfortable is that?
After Matt finished lunch we went out back for a cigarette, George followed us and stood in the doorway and stared at us the whole damn time, what I am not allowed a quick break. Matt left and I went back into the restaurant, sat down with George for a minute and all of a sudden he just went off on me, slamming the table with his fists, yelling at me about Matthew asking who the hell does he think he is and then shaking his fist in my face and calling me and every other server a nothing. Two things I will never stand for and have never are being called nothing and and having  some one shake their fist in my face like you want to hit me. Wow so I left after I was told to. I am not now nor have I ever been a nothing, and no one is nothing, so get over it you fat greek pig.
This is not where the story ends as Matt still had to get his money from them for working that Sunday, crazy comes next because now they accuse me of stealing everything that Matt ate or drank, I am not a thieve and have never been and they actually tried to get out of paying for Matt working. All I said is check my ringouts and I knew he already did and was just trying to push us around cause we are gay.What an ass, just so you know. The good thing is I am here in Toronto and finding a job for me has never been a problem at all. Good bye asshole employer and your brother, also buyer beware of where you eat.

His last day here with me for now!

Well we crammed a lifetime in the last 10 days, I worked, we did PRIDE, Matt came and helped us at work, we got engaged, we got married. I couldn't be happier and we had a great time doing everything we did, and I truly love Matthew and know that we have done everything right.
Matthew flies out tonight and I have to admit I will be terribly sad and can't believe he is leaving and having to go back to Vancouver. I know it has to be done, he has the house in Vancouver, the tenants and also his parents who need him.
So over the next few months we will travel back and forth from Toronto to Vancouver to be with each other and together. We have a few things to plan and a lot to do over the next year and believe me when I say it, I am so excited about all that we are doing because we are doing it together and as a married couple, which is just amazing.
I have lots to do today and I am going to make my day all about Matt and spending every minute with him in every way possible. I hate the fact that he is leaving and has to go home , but I love the fact that I know he will be back as soon as he can make it out again. Or I will fly out there to see him and spend some time with him and his folks. Maybe help to get things settled for him us both in Vancouver and make some decisions on the house and everything else that needs to be discussed. Yes we discuss things now which is refreshing for both of us.
Well time to get on with the day and get my shit done and spend time with my husband. Talk to you all soon. Have a great day from your gay neighbor.

One More Day

Matthew is leaving tomorrow night and all I can think is how much I am going to miss him again. The first 6 weeks out here were incredibly hard with us apart and separated, now that we are married and he is going back to Vancouver, it will be incredibly hard. I already miss him and he is here next to me on the couch. The girls are going to miss him again as well and Rogue especially, she just loves him to death. On the bright side when we see him again and it will be sooner than later, my god is it great and I don't just mean seeing him, but being together and looking in his eyes and just sitting and lying next to him. I know that we are both strong enough people to do a long distance relationship and I have had other friends who have done this and done well at it. I also know that I love him more than enough to do this and that he loves me. The changes I see in both of us are beyond what I ever thought possible, but I know they are there and that we have both seen them and are both now reaping the benefits of them and us and the path that life is put forward for us.
Things have been amazing for both of us in Toronto and Matt is now seeing why I love the city and why I need and want to be here so badly. I find Toronto so much friendlier and outgoing than Vancouver and also so much more outgoing here and also find myself so much more outgoing here as well, as I am sure Matthew has noticed.
I do have to close with one thing though, with all the congratulations and good for you guys that we received from a lot of our friends, there were a few that were just idiots and could not even muster a congrats or glad for you. To those people well, at least we are in a relationship and are figuring out how to make it work, as far as I know the three of you I know about are all single and just to say none of you have had or are in a relationship and have been single for as long as I can remember. Tim you were just an ass, Jurgen well your response was just rude and stupid at best and to Nicola, well let me say, just a huge disapointment in every way.We are happy and that is all that matters and to all you that can not be for us, it really does not matter to me what the hell you think.

Full Circle

It amazes me how everything seems to come a complete 360 if you just wait for it to happen. Matthew arrived here 10 days ago and it has been a complete whirlwind of fun, love and romance, much like the first week we dated way back when. Matt and I started dating on March 17th of 2009 and we just fell in love, it was a whirlwind romance and I knew from the date I met him that I loved him and called him my lobster from the day we met. We moved in together on May 7th of that same year and yes we had our little problems, but we seemed to always make it through them no matter what. On April 30th of this year, we decided to separate because I just could not live in Vancouver anymore and be unemployed and Matthew could not move here because of his folks back in Vancouver, so the dogs and I came here, I started back to work and got a little apartment in a cute community, hooked up with some old friends and eventually became myself again. While in Vancouver, I just started to loose myself and who I was with all the challenges I faced there. The unemployment and the struggles of the phony people that became a thorn in my side. I just lost me and became a really different man than I ever had been before.
Anyhow Matthew and I have been on the phone and msn constantly since the day I left and he arrived a week ago wedenesday and came out to visit for PRIDE and stay for a while. Anyhow here is where the story unfolds, last Thursday a day after he arrived we were sitting at the Firken having a drink and I just looked at him and asked him to marry me on Tuesday, he said yes. So on Tuesday we headed down to city hall and applied for our marriage licence, After obtaining our licence we went up stairs and booked our wedding for the next afternoon at 1pm. So Wednesday July 6th at 1pm Matt and I got married, a week after his arrival here in Toronto. We had a great and intimate ceremony with a few friends, actually just 4 friends, Wayne, Martin, Angela and Nancy. It was perfect. I am so happy and now married. I truly love Matt now and always have since the day I met him. Thank you for a being in my life and with me dear. Anyhow now we will live apart and share our marriage in 2 different cites for now, until it is right for him to move. We both understand where we are and for the first time in years, I believe we are both at peace in our lives and being married is so right, and for me marriage is once and I am so glad it is Matt that I am married to. I am truly in love and we are so great together , he is my lobster! I will tell you all more about our wedding soon and Matthew's trip out here to Toronto and Pride here. You all have a  great day and thank you for reading.  

Pride is finally over

It was a great Pride and a wonderful time the last week, although extremely busy and not without the exceptions of a few bad moments which were overcome after a couple of stiff drinks. Any how to catch you all up, Matthew arrived last Wednesday morning, his flight was late but non the same he got here and I am so happy he was here and with me and got to meet my friends and celebrate Pride with me. I worked everyday unfortunately from the date of his arrival and was there most days up to 10 hours so it was a crazy week for me and for us and then we would go out and explore the village and the hundreds of thousands of people who were here.
So here are some of the mishaps this Pride, Mayor Rob Ford, just an idiot to say the least, first mayor of Toronto in years, not to represent the city by marching in the parade or opening the gay pride celebration. I think he has totally screwed himself for re election in 4 years time. Second, oh my god it was busy and the kitchen where I work , what a fucking disaster is all I can really say about that. Only one of the three cooks in there can read english and gives a shit what they are sending out. The other 2 not so great, especially Fusili, a stupid and belligerent ass, he is from Greece and therefor protected by the owners and is just a total fuck up. The man throws plates in the window, literally the one day from standing there and waiting for my food to come up, the front of my shirt was covered in Hollandaise sauce. Then on Pride Sunday Stella, my boss was there waiting tables and fell onto a piece of glass and cut her hand wide open, after taking over her section, still doing mine and consoling her daughter I was just plain exhausted that day, nut I went out with my girls and Matthew and we went to the Firken and had a few drinks. A good time was had by all eventually! After leaving the Firken and the girls on Sunday, Matt and I went to see my friend the other Wayne and his partner, yes I know that may confuse you. Got there and had a couple drinks with them and then walked them to Zippers, as they were going out, not me, had to work in the morning again.  Saturday night we went out for Waynes birthday dinner with him and his friend David. So happy to be there for his birthday, which was actually on Sunday. All weekend long Matt and I were out doing something at night and we had an amazing time together, busy and just wonderful, god I love him so much, he is in Vancouver, because honestly that is where he belongs at the moment and in time we will be together in the same home again, but for now we are always together in our hearts and with each other in our thoughts constantly.
Anyhow yesterday was starting out to be great, but unfortunately did not work out to be that way for a while, with Stella still in the hospital and Themis there with her all day, that left brother George in charge of the restaurant which just turned out to be a disaster, now let me tell you why. Before this Fusili was being his usual ass self and not doing his job and just in panic mode as he always is, so I told George to go in and straighten the ass hole out, because he was just starting to stress everyone. It started with Matt coming in for lunch and having food and paying for it of course as we always do, George sat there the whole time glaring at Matthew while he ate his lunch and had a beer. Making Matt very uncomfortable and making me very angry. No body wants to go to a restaurant and eat lunch and be made to feel that they are unwelcome and stared at like they don't belong there! So Matt got up after his lunch and cleared his own plate and beer bottle and whatever is what I say about that, after all he did come in and help us for 4 hours the day before and bus tables and keep us out of the weeds, so what the hell he cleared his plate after lunch and we went out back for a ciggy break. George followed us and stood in the back door and stared as we smoked and I gave Matt a kiss, come on really he is my partner. Anyways Matt left and I went back inside to work st down for a minute and all of a sudden George went off on me. George was slamming his fist on the table and then put his fucken fist right in my face and telling me how angry he was with me and how he didn't like my friend clearing his plate and started to yell at me, telling me I was a nobody and who do I think I am to tell him about the cook and have my "friend" clear his own plate. He kept on and eventually told me he did not want me there, so I finished my tables and left. Oh well, I will get another job and it will be great and no more Greek owners for me. I am done with them.
Before leaving I told George that I am not a nobody and I worked my ass off for his brother and did my job and went above and beyond my duties which I always have and always will.I also said that no one raises their hand to me ever and he just kept yelling at me in front of my tables and customers and everything else and going on about how I am a nobody we just work for them and that is it, Well mister I am not sure who the hell you think you are but get over it and quickly please. You are just an idiot and I think you may be suffering from demensia or something of that nature, to say the least you have a split personality. So I left and met up with Matt and  we then met up with Alisa and Brian and went and had a couple drinks at the Firken again and then off to Alisa place to check out the view there. The day got better and I vow not to let George and his power trip ruin my day and I did just that, I forgot my troubles and got happy! So that was our Pride, all and all pretty great, with a few mishaps here and there.