Well Matthew has been back in Vancouver for a week now and things are going great for both of us, although it is hard at times and we truly miss each other, this is what it is right now and we are happy in our lives. I am so happy that life has taken me on the course that it has and that the path I have chosen has actually worked out. It just goes to show that if you can deal with all the shit life gives you eventually you will hit something good.
Matthew and I went through a few rough patches and we made it. I have also realized that I need to be less needy and a lot less controlling of my life and just let it go. This was actually a huge challenge for me , but I am managing quite well with it all.
This is why Matt and I are now happy, because we both learned to let go and just let things ride as they will. Any how this is what works for us and made us stronger as a couple.
God I miss him a lot especially on days like today when it is so hot out that all you can do is sit on the couch half naked in front of the air conditioner. I get to talk to him almost daily on MSN, but it is not the same as seeing him in person and kissing his lips and touching him and going for walks and holding his hand. I miss holding his hand the most.
I keep looking for a cheap flight to Vancouver every day so I can go and join him for PRIDE in Vancouver. I would love nothing more than to go out there and just be there with him for a week and celebrate another PRIDE together like we did here. I also want to have a party for our friends in Vancouver and just celebrate our wedding and union. We haven't yet to have any wedding celebrations which is not important but it would be so nice to see certain people and let them celebrate with us.
Hope you are all having a great day and I will be back later to write some more for you. To my husband, I miss you lots and hope you are having a rain free day in Vancouver. Today it is hot as hell here and 41 already with the humidity. I am sweating like a pig.
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